I noticed a couple things lately.

A lot of things have changed for me during the summer. They are good changes though. :] I feel like i've built stronger friendships with certain people and we have become somewhat close. I hope you guys can cherish that with me.

I noticed that some people show their true colors, and put all the time and memories aside and not think when they move their fingers around a keyboard... But then again that's not my business to be playing around with.

I started to think twice about you after February. I gave you a second chance. We got closer, but I always thought you never took me seriously... But then again I may be thinking too much like I usually do. Goodluck to where you are going and don't forget the memories we shared, because I know one day you'll come looking for them.

It's 4:42AM and everyone is practically asleep right now. This is like the only time i've had all day where I can have my train of thought.

It sucks having no phone signal here. I can't send or recieve texts from anybody. < / 3

That means I won't be smiling as much in the morning. BAHAHA. Just kidding.

I'm cutting this one short. I have to run in less than an hour and a half.

I guess i'll type more later, I just wanted to share what I had in mind at the moment.



Things change.


PS.
I hope I don't fuck up with you...

:]

I don't really have a title for this one. I had a really good Sunday for once. It's usually just a day at home being lazy and getting bitched at.

Today was different. It was really nice seeing everyone again.

We went on the 3D brain thing 2 times! Oh god, that thing was boring.

It was fun walking around the art place though! HAHA, everyone kept losing someone. Whenever we found someone, we lost someone else. xD Sophia reject-ed for a sec. LOL. Marvin and Elevia were like walking by themselve's as a couple the entire time. HAHA. That was fun though. I found some cool stuff in there.

I think today was like the first day I like hung out with Sophia hahaha. We were watching the guy doing the hynotysing thing and she was like to me, " Look Ron, we're actually hanging out for once! " AHA.

Alexis made me go on rides today. -_-' I wasn't planning to, but that's okay. :] I had a fun day with her. HAHA.

Princess got Sophia this BIG ASS BANANA. HAHA. She was so concentrated! It was like this: O_O'

HAHAHA.

Today was the final good-bye I can say to Vivian. I hope i'll get to see her soon in the future. You better take care of yourself there!

Her, Marvin, Elevia, and Mark left early.

PA and Don let me stick around with them, so that was cool. Aha.

We walked around for a ride. Alexis made me go on this thing where you just stand. I was like, " Wait what the hell? " That ride was fun though! :] I just had so much pressure on me though. Her and I couldn't lift anything!! HAHA. We felt like pieces of paper being blowed at by a fan at a wall! So helpless. x] HAHA.

After that PA and Don went to get some funnel cake and I went with Alexis to get some Dippin' Dots. HAHA, she was the first one all day to give the guy pennis. LOL.

After that, Princess and Don went on this BIG ASS SWING RIDE THING. It was like the biggest ride in the fair other than the ferry's wheel. That thing made me sick just watching it.

Sophia, Alexis, PA, and I had to wait like an hour or so for them to get on the ride and get off. Long ass line. We just chilled out and stuff.

After that, we went to go finish the last of the tickets. We found out PA accidentally bought $50 worth of tickets. I guess the person understood " 50 " instead of " 15 " . That suckkkks! What sucks more is that we finished it in like half an hour AND we didn't get one prize. Oh well.

We finally got out the fair, and got in the car. For a while we were asking hour selves where we parked because we kind of forgot where we parked. We eventually found the car...

The ride home was like quiet. HAHA. I think Don was falling asleep, and it was just Princess and Sophia talking.

We dropped off Sophia and Alexis. Sophia forgot her big banana by the way.

Then they dropped mee off.

Later on in the night Princess told me she left the banana inside PA's car. GOOD JOB! HAHA.

Yup, I had a good day. :]


OH SO HERE'S THE GROUP PICTURE WITH THE BANANA.

I woke up late.

I woke up late with a text, and a couple of missed calls. It ended being Jed, asking to hang out. So I told him sure.

There wasn't food in the house, so I went to the McDonalds down the street to get a meal. It filled me up, but I didn't quite get to finish my fries. I should just get small fries next time, because I can never finish them.

After I ate I showered and got ready. I waited about half an hour until Jed and Darren came to my street.

We saw two Lambo's before the day really started. We met up with Geoffrey and Laura. Laura was sick, so I couldn't give her a hug. :[

We walked around this music store and DAMN, I didn't know Laura and Darren could play the piano. They made me want to learn how to today.

They went off with their date, and we went to Remie's brother's. We got invited to eat and just chill so we ate and chilled. We left after an hour or so.

We went to Life, to play some Left 4 Dead. But the thing was there was hardly any parking, and there weren't any open computers. So we went to The Heights.

When we got to The Heights, there were a couple people there. So we kicked it at the Well's Fargo. LOL.

We were at their parking lot, eating a box of pizza and listening to Remie's gay music. LOL.

Princess called me for a bit while she was allll tipsy. BAHAHA. ;]

Matt came along at one point, and we just took retarded pictures.

By 12:30AM, we saw a cop parked on a lot near us. We didn't wanna risk anything so we called it a night and went. (curfew shit, I don't want a fine)

So now i'm home. I ate my bowl of cereal, and i'm still supposed to be webcamming but Amy got tired? And Jacob's knocked the fuck out.

Oh so here are the pictures;
















I'm going to get some shut eye, going to the OC Fair with PAYO today. :] It should be fun.

PS.
I'm fucking cutting my hair. Fuck this shit, it's pissing me off.

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my fucking piece of mind and atmosphere just crashed and burned again by fucking bitching. fuck my life. i'm fucking brain dead. i don't wanna sleep. but i'm tired. i think i'm cranky. not from staying up too late, but because i've been getting bitched at for doing nothing. even early in the fucking morning. the fuck is wrong witn you guys. it's fucking morning. i'm just lying down here. and you fucking bitch on me? fucking bitches. the best part is i'm going to be home for the entire fucking day. fucking fantastic. fuck this life.

After last night.

I don't know what to blog about anymore. I basically blogged what was the left in my mind last night. Last night was just so quiet. Music helped me cope with everything I guess. I'm so lucky to have the people that just talked to me and listened last night. I prolly would've been hella deppressed even more if you guys weren't on or anything.

Now what? I don't know what to do anymore. My weekend is ruined. Unless I magically get someone to get me on Sunday. Or for someone to call me tomorow.

I feel like a lot of us need a big hug right now and some of us need to just hang out and have a day out. Everyone seems to be so down and quiet lately. I can't handle this kind of tone during summer. It's just not right.

It's 3:19AM. I've seriously lost track of time the entire day today.

Speaking of today, I was supposed to go out later today. They called me about tomorow, but I was still so angry and irritated about the night before and I couldn't give them straight answers. It was always an " I don't know. " or a " Whatever. " All of the calls ended with just me hanging up. I was so pissed because I couldn't go out at the time and they asked me, OUT OF THE ENTIRE WEEK THAT THEY'VE BEEN OUT. To get me. AT THIS TIME? REALLY? I felt bad for acting like a bitch to my friend, because he offered to get me to just chill out tomorow, and I was like " I DON'T KNOW. LOOK CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS LATER? " -hangs up- It's been in my head the whole night. It's bugging me.

I seriously doubt I can go on Sunday, because I don't think I have a ride to the OC Fair nor Jacob's house later on the night.

Agghhh. FML.

It's almost August, and I noticed my summer wasn't really anything out of the ordinary.

Someone save me.

Fuck my life. For reals now.

I can't really say anything about my day right now. Because one, it wasn't interesting. Two, I played like shit when I was playing basketball. Three, fuck my life.

From 11-12 at night I was in the shower. In that hour, was probably the most helpless, deppressing, and maybe the time where I really felt alone. I was crying that entire hour. I had so many shit just getting poured out my eyes from my mind. I don't remember crying this bad before. I had so much shit that i've been keeping bottled up within myself from other people. I guess today was the day I cracked. Or maybe it was my fucking parents who fucking cracked me.

I can't relax in my own home anymore. I shouldn't even be calling it a home right now. It's just a place where I stay at and sleep. I can't sit down and watch TV and give myself a rest and relax anymore without getting yelled at or something along the lines of it. I can't hang out with friends without getting bithced at everytime I go somewhere. I'm tired of my parents fucking putting me down, and making me live my life with no fucking sense of motivation. They make me sound like some kind of mindless, heartless robot that doesn't have any dreams and ambitions. They never let me try anything new or experience something new. They're fucking impatient, even though they bitch at me for being impatient. Fucking hypocrytes right? They call me for about something, I get to them, and they fucking yell at me to go back to what I was supposed to do. What the fuck is that?

I'm getting fucking sick of it. Today's like the first time they fucking told me to fucking get the fuck out. What the fuck is wrong with them? The only thing that comes out their mouths about me are always negative shit. Nothing positive. But hey that's basically my fucking life anyway right?

They think my fucking life is about me getting awards and being successful at shit. How the fuck do you do that, when you get no motive to do so and in the end all you get is shit like " That's what you're SUPPOSED TO DO. " No " Good job. " or shit.

They fucking think i'm full of failure and I can't do anything right. They always blame about shit during these times. Especially my friends. I think it's just fucking rude to just blame them. " You shouldn't be hanging out with your fucking friends anymore! This is what you get by hanging out with them. You turn into a little bitch. " Shit like that gets me so bad. I mean one, it's fucking rude. Two, what gives them the right mind to fucking judge me like that and what gives them the right mind to judge my friends. They make it sound like i'm living a life under the influence or some shit. Do you see them smoking pot? Do you see them sneaking out? Do you see them breaking into peoples shit? Do you see them stealing peoples shit? Do you see them doing some gang shit? I don't think so. No means of stereotyping or shit. I know my surroundings, and the good and bad of people. I'm not fucking stupid to be anywhere around those people or even be 15 feet within them.

They always say shit to me like " You're making the wrong decisions. You need to get your fucking act up. " What the fuck is that shit? Wrong decisions? ABOUT WHAT. Okay I talk back. Why? Because the shit they bitch at me for, is fucking ridiculous. The fuck am I listening to them about THAT. What the fuck? I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING BAD. All you see me do, is sit in my fucking room endlessly. I can't have a peace of mind in this fucking house anymore.

They're fucking tired of driving me around to places, when they obviously know I hardly get the chance to go out anymore. Nor I ask them to drive me around much anymore. Don't worry bitches. When I get myself a permit you won't see me around much and bugging you guys for shit anymore.

They always make me sound stupid. " Why the fuck do you go to school acting like this? " WHAT THE FUCK. They also make it sound like I don't learn anything. Okay I have two C's in my fucking report card. Sure I almost failed Geometry and almost had to re-take the class. What does that have to do with anything NOW? I'm fucking passing. And they bitch at me nonsense about THAT?

They make me feel like trash. I ask for one thing I can't get an EASY GOING conversation with them. It's so hard to talk to them about anything.

It's fucking sad, now that I think about it. I'm not close to them unlike some of my friends are to their parents. I guess it's just the way they were raised.

Fuck my life.

Oh so that's only my life inside the fucking house. It's time to fucking start about shit outside my house. Well some of it.

I can't go out without being responsible for anyone anymore. I guess it's because i'm too nice about giving rides and shit EVERY SINGLE TIME I GO OUT. Fuck when are they ever going to get rides? I can't go out without having to take one of them with me or with me taking them back home. What the fuck is that. I feel bad for saying " No. " and just leaving them there. But now it's just fucking ridiculous. I guess i'm a bit too nice. But stopping that won't get me anywhere and if I keep doing it, won't get me anywhere too. What the fuck.

Whenever i'm out with some people, i'm always the one alone. Some of you may understand that some won't. But i'm not going to explain myself on that.

Fuck my life.

I really don't have anyone to go to for some love and motivation. It's sad. I always have to do everything alone and work my way around it in the end.

Oh and a little something about today. I'm really getting sick of myself for fucking choking whenever I run with them during games. I don't know what's with me. I'm like so scared. I don't know what the fuck to do.

/rant

Okay now, i've been listening to " From Where You Are " by Lifehouse. It's been on repeat the entire time I was doing this blog. It makes me think of Vivian. Why? Listen to the song. But I guess it's kind of retarded saying that. Because seeing her yesterday. It was just I don't know. She doesn't seem sad about it or anything. Princess told me she's like that, because she wants people to remember her from what she's being like right now. Happy, Outgoing, Cheerful. But I don't know. It's just sad that she's REALLY moving. I remember she told me before she was going to move and she ended up not going to. Now it's really happening. Everything is happening so fast. I was really hoping to share a lot of memories with her. It's impossible now, because it's going to be impossible being with her physically. I'm going to miss everything about her. Especially the things during school.

I'm starting to regret what I said about her during February, and how I acted towards her. Now that's a month wasted with her. I can't say that there's one more February with her. What a lot of time anger and deppression can waste right?

I'm a fucking mess right now. The last part about Vivian made me shed a tear. It's just sad.

I don't think i'm sleeping tonight.

I Love Beth Cooper

I woke up early today.

I ate chicken for breakfast.

Jeb came.

I got ready.

Gian came.

Leoroye couldn't make it.

We get on our way to Downtown Disney.

We wait half an hour for Keilah to get there.

Somewhere in that half an hour we meet up with Leoroye.

Me and Jeb meet Keilah at the ESPN zone.

Keilah calls Michelle so she can go.

We walk around.

We go to the Lego store and play with some Legos. LOL.

We go to the Build-a-Bear store and just sit and chill out.

We go out to look for Jacob.

Jacob tells me he's on the oposite side from where we were at.

Me and Keilah turn around to find him.

We find him.

We get our tickets.

We get into the hallway.

Me and Jeb found that we could've watched either The Hangover or the 6th Harry Potter. LOL.

But we went to I Love Beth Cooper.

We kinda came in late, so we missed part of the beginning.

The beginning wasn't very interesting so me and Jeb thought about going out and going to a different movie in like 15 minutes.

It got interesting and we stayed.

We all sat in the front. LOL. Keilah and Jacob sat at the handi-capped area, so it was just like two seats. Everyone else sat below them. Leoroye had a whole side to himself. So he layed down. LOLOL.

Michelle came, so Gian went out to come and get her.

They come all snuggled up on the other side of the row.

So it's just me and Jeb in the middle. How gay. LOL.

The movie was pretty good! AHA, it was sorta something like Superbad, but not as stupid.

We got out quite early. So we snuck into Harry Potter.

It was like the 2nd half of it.

So everyone all runs up to chairs.

What's sad is that everyone sits in different rows, in couples. -_- Exept that one homo couple. LOL. I was behind them. I scared the shit outta Leoroye at that one part in the movie. (anyone who watched it, knows what I mean) BAHAHA.

So yeah. It was kinda lonely for most of the part because I was by myself in that row. Like it was an empty row. -_-

So I was texting Michelle Don, Sophia, and Amy.

Then we got out.

We went to Jamba Juice.

They got Jamba Juice.

Someone wanted to see the guy who did the magic tricks. LOL, he made all these balls multiply from one inside this guy's hand. Jacob stood RIGHT BEHIND HIM TOO. HAHAH.

So yeah.

We get on the tram. Wasn't much fun, because it was crowded like mad. Plus Keilah was like in a rush because her mom was coming soon.

On the way back sucked, because everyone had to squish in one tram.

Keilah rushes back to the ESPN zone.

We wait.

Wait.

Wait.

...

Leoroye and Jeb get the scooter that Leoroye took to Downtown Disney which he hid inside a bush. LOL.

They came back.

Michelle had to go, so Gian walked with her out...

Me, Jacob, Jeb, and Leoroye get out of Downtown Disney.

We get to Stater Bros. because my dad needed to get a coconut for some reason. LOL.

We get to my house. I shower. We leave.

We get to Westminister High to go watch JV play their last game against Cypress. And see Vivian for one of the last time's we'll be seeing her. :I

We barely came in to half time, and we had to pay a dollar to get in. Waaaaack.

So we get in, and I thought we would get to sit in the bleachers or something. But we sat on the floor of the Rebel side. LOL. WOOO COURT SIDE SEATS FOR A DOLLAR. LOL.

It was wierd, there were two full games playing inside that gym, because the gym was big enough for two full courts. O_O

I think it was a playoff thing or something, there were like 5 other teams around.

Anyways... Rebels tie it up at the end of regulation. Then they lose it by 2 at overtime. I thought they were gonna go for a couple of overtimes. But whatever.

We go outside.

Take pictures.

Now the gay part.

We wait at Westminister for like an hour and a half. Why? Because Jacob's dad lagged it to the fucking max. SO gay. We could've just stayed inside the gym and watch games and still walk out and be waiting outside, then waiting outside the ghetto ass place for an hour and a half. So wack.

Anyways we eventually get picked up, and all of us get dropped off.

We wait at my driveway outside for Jeb, Rendell, and Leoroye to get picked up.

HAHA.

Jeb and Leoroye get picked up, and me and Jeb go in the living room to wait for his mom to pick him up.

We watched some PBA.

They play like shit.

Jeb gets picked up.

I get online.

Jacob got a fever.

I get chicken.

Jeb, Jacob, Amy, and I webcam.

I get more chicken.

We webcam.

Everyone gets off.

I clean up.

I shower.

I talk for a bit.

And now i'm here.

I'm kinda getting hungry, and I feel like sleeping A LITTLE EARLIER.

So yeah, i'm gonna get off of this.


PS.
I can't really reflect on my day today. I don't know why. My train of thought just completely stopped for the day.

My day.

I slept in, and I had Gian wait at my house for like half an hour. Thank god it was only for that long.

We just chilled out for a bit and watched The Haunting while we were waiting for Leoroye.

So eventually Leoroye came.

Then Jeb came out of no where.

Then finally Rendell came.

We just chilled out, played 2k9, webcammed with Michelle, got pizza, ate, watched Wanted, chilled out, eat KFC. Then yeah that was the day. We were gonna play ball, but we were all lazy.

So then when everyone left, I cleaned my room and other shit around, I showered, and now i'm sitting here. Hella tired, with a headache, and a shit load on my mind right now. I don't know how to exactly word it out so I don't know what to say myself.

I don't know what to do about anything anymore.

I hope tomorow works out fine. I really need a good day in my system to just get me in a positive mood.

Just got off the phone not too long ago. (3:50ish am)

My day wasn't much.

I woke up at 3pm, and I was sore as fuck!! HAHA. I couldn't get out of bed. AT 3. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT. HAHA.

Anyways, my mom barely got home when I woke up. And there was fresh McDonalds for me. :]

HAHA. So I ate that while watching the 5th Year of Harry Potter.

After that, I got on the computer and did what I usually do. I blogged about my previous post so yeah, just read that if you want to.

Oh, I played 2k9. HEHE. It's fun now. ;]

I ate my bowls of Cereal.

I showered.

And then I webcammed. It wasn't much of a webcam like how it usually was last week but whatever.

I think it was around 1:30AM Alexis calls me. Apperantly she couldn't sleep. Aha.

So we were on the phone, just catching up on stuff and whatnot.

Eventually. She knocks out just before 4. She beat the phone before it died. HAHA.

So I got left with Mikey and Jacob.

It was just the usual with those two.

Tia wasn't on once today! I didn't talk to her all day.

I really miss Princess. BAHA. I haven't seen her in forever.

I got like 5 hours to sleep, hopefully I wake up. <_<

Today should be fun. If it doesn't go as planned hopefully I get to play ball.




PS.
Gotta start takin' some risks, and working hard is the key right now.

NO PAIN NO FUCKING GAIN.

Waking up.

It's always a different scenario whenever I wake up. For the past few weeks, it's just shit that keeps me down for the day.

When I woke up today, I had a dream that took place with someone I know well.

I don't know, we didn't really talk much in the dream. It was just her pressence. <-spell check -_-

But when I woke up, there wasn't anything I could think of about it. All I can think of, was that I was just missing her pretty badly.

I haven't talked to her in a long ass time.

It's wierd, just suddenly missing her all of a sudden.

Well now i'm talking to her. So I feel better. HAHA.

Another random post... I just wanted to share it with anyone who reads this.

Feelin' better...

Thanks to that and Rose.

Oh, I thank Tia. For now I will have something else to wear on some days other than white and grey shirts. <3

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Anyways I might as well talk about my day.

I woke up at 3, I didn't really have an appetite for the extremely good meal my mom cooked up for me, so I feel bad for not finishing it.

The whole day I just felt shitty, if you didn't already notice from my past few blog posts.

I played ball after 3 weeks? Damn, I certainly got hella out of shape. But I managed to get into a rhythm... err zone. I beat Ryan 15-2. Then he got lucky when it was win by 2, and dropped this lucky ass 2 pointer with me all up on him. He won 16-14.

Anyways, I got dinner.

I watched the ESPYS, and ate. Is it just me, or I found some really pretty women in there. HAHA.

I felt like shit still then I showered.

I got out, and the AC was on.

I talked to Rose about a couple stuff. I didn't really say much, but she managed to put this grin back to my face.

So now, I just finished my bowl of cereal. I think i'm going to go for one more.

I am wanting so much stuff right now, but no money.

-pair of dunks
-DSi
-a battery for my phone, because it dies hella fast
-some shirts, because i'm tired of wearing the same shit the entire summer

I think that's what's possible for now 'till August.

Where did you go?

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

" Where'd You Go " - Fort Minor

My question to myself is, who went? :/

My head is so messed up right now.

Fuck it.

Fuck it all.

I don't have much to say about anything right now.

Why can't I succeed in anything?

Fuck this life and everything in it right now. -_-'

Bye.

Saturday.

Fuck this day so much.

Nothing to do.

So much on my mind.

Anyways, I found a YouTube channel with like 2006 playoffs games. So i'm going to go ahead and watch that.

I need to start saving up.

Hopefully I play basketball later today. Because i'm seriously fucking tired of people fucking lagging it.

Chocolate Milk.

Thanks mom.

So I got thirsty and I found that in the fridge. Man, I hhaven't drank it since school ended. HAHA.

FUCK MAN.

FML.

Crossing the line?

I'll get to that later.

Anyways, my Friday was pretty good. Bestfriend woke me up again. :] Baha, she's been waking me up so much this week. x]

Anyways I didn't get up easily. It took me like three tries to get up. I eventually got up by like 12:15PM.

I talked to bestfriend for a bit, then I called my dad to pick me up at 1pm, then I eventually showered... Without eating. Yeah...

I got to the mall by like 1:10, I had to wait like half an hour for Keilah inside Krikorian.

I felt like I was going to fall asleep or eventually get food while I was waiting for her, because I was sooooo sleepy. My eyes were like shutting on their own and I never ate. And it was about 1:30.

She calls me to go to Kelly's and wait for her. It wasn't much of a wait until I finally saw her<3

Man, I haven't seen her in so long! HAHA, oh by the way, if you read this, I hate to sound like a broken record, but you did look ridiculously cute today. HAHA, i'm just saying.

Anyways, we got tickets to go watch Harry Potter. Keilah was a fattie and got gummy bears before we got in. HAHA.

Mannnn, it was so full in the movies when we got in, we had to sit in the front section! HAHA, it wasn't that bad.

Mikey wasn't lying about the movie being funny most of the time. HAHAHAHA.

We got out of the 2 and a half hour movie around 4:30.

Keilah got hungry again so we walked out to Berry Sweet. She told me " I'm only gonna get a little. " BAHAHAHA, that was so much!

Anyways, we sat outside and talked for like half an hour or so. Time moved pretty fast from there. I told her about my eye thing HAHA. Yup I may need glasses soon. My mom is gonna schedule a check up for me. Keilah asked me whether she should have a Sweet 16 or a Debut. I told her she's gonna be more white washed than she already is with a Sweet 16. So she decided on having a Debut. HAHA. Wooo, so 3 years from now. I'm most likely doing the dance and shit. Fun. HAHA. I'm going to be looking forward to that.

Anyways, we saw some friends from like accros the fountain at the mall so we met up with them. Keilah and I didn't stay long because we were getting picked up soon, so yeah.

Eventually Keilah had to leave, so did I.

So I get picked up, and the plan was my dad cooks and he get's me In-N-Out. That didn't really pull through and we went to go eat at Gerry's Grill. God damn, that's become like our family resturant or some shit. We eat there sooo much! I never get sick of it though. x]

After that we go to Best Buy. My mom needed a new laptop, because the hand-me-down that my dad gave to her was starting to become more and more shitty each day. I was going to get a surround sound system for my room. But I guess the interest shit wasn't working out very nice. My dad said the worker was an asshole too so yeah.

We go home. Turn on the AC. And I lie down for like the longest time. HAHA.

I think I spent the rest of the day lying down, and watching movies with the AC on.

Pretty relaxing right?

Not really, I had a lot going through my mind.

So I eventually go on the computer and yeah.

I do what I usually do.

Keilah made me hungry so I got 3 big cookies, a bag of Hot Fries, and water and Milo. I munched on that.

I watched Death Sentence. Like the entire movie. It's fucking intense. That's all I can say.

So yeah. That was my day. It's like 4:05AM now and I really need to word what's on my mind right now or i'm just gonna be wrecked from thinking about it for a shitload of times so yeah.

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Okay so about the " Crossing the line? " thing, it's about me taking my Keilah out more than Jacob does. Like I thought about it today and it hit me. I've been out with her alone, like me and her more than Jacob has. Plus to add to that Jacob never went anywhere with her alone during they're 5 months? In the relationship? I don't know. I just feel bad that i've been out with her like this instead of Jacob. -_-' HAHA, i'm not even the boyfriend so it's kinda wrong. But oh well. Maybe if I don't think about it too much it isn't really a bad thing. It's not like we do anything bad, so yeah. Meh. I should be doing these sort of things with other girls. Thing is there aren't any. HAHA. FML. I told Jacob to start taking her out more, because it's ridiculous I take her out more and i'm not even going out with her. -_- My bad nigga.

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Anyways, 2 weeks from now Jacob and I are gonna do some crazy shit at his place for 3 days. HAHA. It's a secret for now. :p

So yeah, that's all. There's a lot more on my mind, but I don't think I should put it here.

Fuck my life?

I don't know. I think i'm just tired and I seriously don't know what the hell is going through my mind the past 5 hours. HAHA.

I think I should sleep. I'm feeling really tired. It's kind of hard to sleep without watching something though. -_-'

I get creeped out at night, because it's hella quiet. D: So I need the TV, but I guess i'm fucked over tonight.

I think I may need glasses sooon. I can't see clearly looking at shit behind screens like computers and TVs and shit. Or read anything without my eyes getting all blurry randomly. D:

Or maybe because i'm tired?

I don't know what to do later today. D:

I noticed.

Adrenaline is what gets me through the day, my thoughts, day-dreams, and whatever the fuck I do. HAHA.

Yup, random thought.

Thursday.

So I gave up on watching Harry Potter today. AHA, I was broke. D: And I didn't have a ride to The Block.

So I got up and got ready within an hour and finally got out of the house.

I got dropped off at Jeb's house then got picked up by Rendell to go to their last game at Hope College.

HAHA, they finally won! But I think it was only because JoJo was the point card and Mario was pretty active around the boards and such. They carried so much tempo and force when they were on the court. HAHA, thanks to them we won, but other people played good too.

Anyways, that was their last game and then we all left.

Rendell dropped us off at Jeb's. It was pretty boring for a good hour. HAHAHA.

Brandon's brother stopped by, then eventually Brandon came. Then Sam, and then Leo.

That was the day. HAHA.

I got home around 9:30? I ate dinner, then washed up, and now i'm doing this blog while listening to my blog song.

I swear that song is like. x]

I noticed this one's pretty short. I'm so lazy to type out anything. x]

Wednesday.

So I woke up like 3 different time's today. I got up at 12PM to turn on the AC and knocked back out. I woke up at 2PM then knocked out. Then I eventually woke up at 3PM because of so many texts. AHA.

I didn't watch Harry Potter as planned because no one was going...

So I ended up talking to bestfriend 'till like 5. Aha.

And my day was so lazy.

I ate Chicken Pot Pie today! ;D I ate two of them... but now there are none left. :[

I played 2k9 today after like how long. HAHA, i'm so rusty! I was 2-0 for the day though. :] And my record is now 10-1. I still don't know how I lost that one game. -_-'

Anyways, I ate. Then I OFFICIALLY watched Wanted. That movie is so trippy. It's like The Butterfly Effect but not as disturbing.

The ending just gave me a " WHAT THE FUCK " moment because of what Wesley says in the ending. -_-' Whoever watched that movie might know. Because he was like " So, WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE LATELY? " and I thought about my day and I was like, fuck this. -_-'

HAHA. I ate dinner wasn't that good. -_-'

Then I showered.

I oovoo'ed 'till about 4AM.

Then here I am listening to my iTunes and doing this. Gah, not much today. D:

Oh I know what to do, I need the full version of I Remember by Kaskade. WHO EVER HAS IT SHOULD SEND IT TO ME<3

G'morning.

I'd never thought,

I'd see Princess knock the fuck out before. BAHAHA. She was falling asleep every minute when Vivian left.

It's like 5:43AM right now. I should get some sleep.

Gonna get that Chicken Pot Pie when I wake up. :]

There's like nothing to do. Tonight I swear so boring. -_-

I'm only talking to Mark right now.

Mikey went to bed.

Tia doesn't sound like she wants to talk.

So whatever. HAHA.

OH BTW, i'm sorry for not calling you Vivian. HAHA. I'll make it up.

So i'm webcamming.

With Vivian and Princess. Jacob left a while ago. Bobby was supposed to get on, and Amy got awkward being around us. HAHA. Oh and Sophia just dissappeared.

Well Princess is like getting carried away on the phone lmao. Vivian is on the couch which is like 15 feet away from the computer so everything she has to read has to be in BIG font. And I eventually got bored because yeah. HAHA.

It's funny how Vivian is trying to sleep on that couch, but she has to hang off of it. :p She's so fat to get up and get blankets and pillows to sleep on the carpet. :p

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Anyways about my day... I woke up pretty early today. I woke up at 12:45PM. That's pretty early. There are so many people online at this time! OMG. HAHA.

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Anyways, it's so hard to concentrate on this blog, when Princess sounds high while being on the phone. AHAHA.

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Anyways... So I got up, Jacob was on and bestfriend was on. Jacob said wassup just like that. Bestfriend took a little while. I eventually talked about it with her, and I guess it was just all in my head. -_-' I need to stop thinking so much. It's going to FUCK ME OVER SO BAD!

Gian eventually called to pick me up for the game, but I lost track of fucking time, and I hadn't eaten yet. SO I fucked over myself and I didn't get enough time for myself to eat and get ready. -_- Oh well.

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Anyways, Princess fell asleep for like 2 minutes, then Vivian woke her up. HAHAHAHA.

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SO now I stayed home doing nothing. -_-' I just watched Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix and Eagle Eye, repeatedly 'till I was webcamming which I was 11PM. Cool right?! Anyways in the middle of that, I made a list of all this shit I wanted to get. Researched on how I can make my phone last longer (battery). Yeah I was that bored. Then I ate steak<3 .

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My phone's been 74% for the past hour now. Holy shit. HAHA. Oh and Princess is singing. Attractive. HAHAHAHAHAHA. She sounds drunk. LOL.

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So yeah. That was my day. HAHA. Not--

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HAHAHAHA, PRINCESS IS GONNA SING. BE RIGHT BACK. HAHAHAHA. GONNA RECORD THIS.

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THIS IS AWESOME. AHAHA, NOW DON IS SINGING. AHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAA.

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Anyways, i'm going to end it here. I can't really talk about my day much, since I didn't really do anything. Hight of my day... Err, night, was webcamming with these two girls. HAHA. So yeah. OH I HAD CHICKEN POT PIE FOR LUNCH AND ANIMAL STYLED FRIES WHICH MY MOM BROUGHT HOME. HAHA. W00T.

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I guess i'm going to be on the phone with Vivian for a bit. Peace out.

Monday.

So lazy to describe. Soo.

-Woke up at 4:30PM and saw I had texts from Amy and Darren.
-Got on the computer.
-Was pretty okay with my life.
-Ate.
-Watched Rocky Balboa
-Fuck my life from there.
-Talked with people about it.
-I felt better, because someone said she missed me. I miss you too! To be honest it's nice to hear that from people. I don't know why but yeah. WE NEED TO CHILL OUT SOON! :]
-I went back on the computer, talked to someone about it. I guess I really should confront her about it and see.
-I went to go shower.
-I went to go ooVoo with Keanu, Bobby, and Jacob.
-Aaron gives me this website of Pokemon, which explains why my Snorlax is everywhere. <3
-I eat some cookies.
-More ooVooing , w/Bobby, Amy, Jon, and Jacob.
-Jon and Jed kill the chatroom.
-We make a new chatroom, more fun.
-Still ooVooing with Amy, Bobby, Aaron, and Jacob.
-I eat some grapes.
-Still ooVooing.
-More grape eating.
-We ooVoo 'till about 3:15AM.
-Amy gets off.
-Bobby gets off.
-Jacob lags it 'till 3:30AM.
-Talk to Mikey.
-Now i'm doing this blog.

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Okay so it was nice talking to you today. :] Even though it wasn't much of a conversation I think. Baha. Oh wells, I haven't talked to you in forever. I didn't really try talking to you when you were out and when you're phone was working because I didn't want to bother you or be a bother. HAHA, what the hell both of those were the same thing. But yeah, I MISS YOU. We need to hang out! ;D

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Amy Kawakami, I don't know if you read my blog. But you've been talking to me a lot lately. HAHA, I just simply think that's cool. x] I'm having fun with our daily webcamming at night. AHAHA. x] Oh and thanks for just being there for me whenever i'm feeling like shit. :]

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Mikey, hook it up nigger. :]

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Tia's so quiet today.

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Okay I sleep now. I also need to remind myself I need to have a talk with "bestfriend" tomorow. -_- Fuck I hope this doesn't fuck me up or anything.

Look.

I've been feeling like this little guy lately. -_-







OH and I was fucking bored, so I made my own Lobster.

FAUX YEAH.

I need to really start sleeping soon.

My summer is going to get fucked up because i'm waking up so fucking late. Like right now. It's 4:33PM, I just woke up. What the fuck.

Another late night. My schedule is so fucked.

I don't know why I feel so wrecked right now.

One person finally opens their mind and notices.

One person somewhat opens up.

One person does what they do best.

I guess that's what's keeping my mind from imploading right now.

*sigh

Just one day...

Lazy Sunday.

Fuck I don't know how i'm going to do this blog. I have like a big ass headache and my stomach feels like shit. I feel like i'm going to throw up or something but that's not the case. >_<

Anyways, the family was supposed to go eat Dimsum this morning for brunch. But the thing was... I woke up at 3PM and my dad woke up hella early too! So yeah...

Anyways I got on the computer and did what I usually do 'till about 4PM, when I started to shower.

After that I got dressed, and went to Costco.

I was pretty fussy myself the entire time there. HAHA. Maybe because I was really hungry, tired, or maybe both! But yeah. We got food and shiet then we left.

We went to Gerry's Grill and I downed that food like nothing!

I didn't have dinner the night before because my stomach felt like shit and breakfast because yeah...

I had two full glasses of Coke, garlic rice, some meat thing which I downed the entire thing. And yeah. Man I was full! ;D

I was texting Sophia the entire time I was eating too. BAHA.

Okay then we left.

My dad kept driving around in circles around the area to drop off shit and stuff. So I was getting agitated by that. <_<

Then I eventually got home.

Now from like 6:45PM 'till about 9PM I was just chilling out on the computer without the TV on and talking to Tia. It was relaxing, because my house was fucking cold. Plus whenever I would lay down my bed felt fucking great. I haven't had that feeling in a loooong time.

I got hungry so my mom made me these Spam hotdogs. They were good, until they left me with a " I feel like throwing up. " feeling in my fucking stomach up 'till now! Fuck now I have a headache too.

From there I was talking to more people. Jacob eventually got connection at the Wal-Mart they're parked net to, Amy because she's just talking to me more now, Tia the usual, Gian about shoes and our homo-ness, and Michelle T.

The conversation with Michelle wasn't long, but someone I don't know deep. I don't know how deep it got within a short time or length, but it did. HAHA. Because she mentioned why i'm talking to Gian when I hated the living fuck out of him at one point of the year. Like to the point where I just wanted to jump him even know I didn't know him and gave him glares and ignored him when he said wassup. I told her, " Well things change you know? People change through time and stuff. " Because she never thought I would be talking to him and I told her that. I told her " Well you know, I didn't really think I would be talking to you right now too. " She wondered why, and I told her that when I first saw her last year, she was the prettiest thing i've seen. HAHA, and that someone like her wouldn't talk to someone like me. She had the opposite thought about me... She was sleepy, so she went to bed. She thanked me about making her realize small stuff like that, that most peope don't really notice or pay much attention to but yeah.

I had a cookie, which didn't fill me up much.

Mikey was tripping out because Tia keeps giving him badluck and he keeps going OMFG WTF MAN. Yeah sorry Mikey, even though my vowels aren't going to do fuck. HAHA.

Keanu and I talked for a bit. I haven't talked to that fag in a long time, got to go chill with him soooon. He told me to get an OoVoO and I will.

Now i'm sitting here talking to Tia and Jacob.

Tia's venting to me about stuff. And got me thinking about that one girl that I got hella infatuated with before. Until she told me and I went fml.

Jacob's making me go fml himself too because yeah.

I think Keanu's right. I need a girlfriend. I'm not saying this how I used to say it in my other blogs. I just want that girl that could me my bestfriend whom which I can have that special relationship with. BAHA. Fucking lame.

Anyways, I hope my stomach stops giving me this fucking feeling tomorow.

I hope today's a good day, regardless of it being fucking hot like the weather thing says.

It's 2:33AM. I should sleep soon.

Eff my life, I hate procrastinating on blogs.

So I got carried away with the webcamming and shit last night so i'm going to blog about my Friday and Saturday.



My bestfriend woke me up on Friday asking if I was going to go bowling with everybody (which by the way failed BAD) and I said no. So we said bye's and hung up. I got on the computer and we talked 'till about 3:30pm which when I had to get ready for the dentist/orthodontist whatever you call it.

Somewhere between there I ate my lunch make plans on Wednesday with bestfriend to watch Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince =D I got to watch my first episode of Silent Library, haha it's an okay show.

Before I left, I had a small chatroom with bestfriend and Jacob. HAHA, it didn't last long. :[ Oh well.

I got to the dentist and I felt good. HAHA. Because I thought I dressed my self up pretty nicely. :p

HAHAHAHA, just kidding. But yeah.

I got bored so I started texting people. I was texting Glanda if people were going to play ball at the park because it's Friday and I texted Rose just to say " How are you? " and stuff like that...

The dentist was pretty un-relaxing. -_-

I couldn't relax while getting the checkup, because some little kid was yelling all loud and shit like he was getting an arm torn off and stuff. Fucking shit!!

Eventually that was gotten over with and I was going home listening to some Consequence. =D YEEEE.

There was nothing to do now, since no one was going to the park. SO I sit my ass off in front of my TV and play 2k9 'till it gets to 10pm. Somewhere in between that I had dinner...

So I get back on the computer, I ended up Tokboxin'.

HAHA, the first few minutes I spent on the webcam, I was re-lacing the 720s. HAHA. Fucking lame. :p I ended up webcamming and stuff 'till about 4:30am? I don't remember.

Somewhere in between all of that Tokboxing I took my default picture... YOU GUYS SHOULD COMMENT IT. :]

I eventually layed down in bed around 5am. I was texting Tia, until I fell asleep...

Overall by the morning I was somewhat looking at life in a positive matter. It was wierd but I can get used to this. :] I was pretty happy.



Eventually I wake up at aroudn 11:45am because bestfriend gives me a wake up call. :]

I was texting Tia goodmorning, I don't remember if she slept or not. O_O

I got a bowl of Sinigang and rice, but I had a bad stomach ache the entire morning so I couldn't down ANYTHING!

After that I got on the computer and put on my status message something about thanking my bestfriend for waking me up. LOL, fucking Aaron's a fag because he calls me saying " Your welcome. " HAHAHA. What a fag.

I eventually get my ass into the shower.

I finally leave the house after being home for many many hours for two straight weeks. =D

We went to A.I. and I got to finish the GRB. HAHA. Yes accomplished! ;D

Tia eventually arrives and she starts slapping me in the head as I finish up. HAHA. :[

Well, before I got to finish the race they go downstairs. So somewhere in there Remie gives me FD. :] That shit is sexy. OMG. ;] HAHAHA. Okay i'm going to stop now. Oh and I let Michael give it a try. So yeah... MOVING ALONG FROM WANGAN...

We as in, Tia, Michael, Kristine, and I go downstairs to Genki living. LOL. Michael kept yelling out " WOOOOOOOO!! " All randomly. HAHAHA.

The randomest most retarded things happend at Genki Living LOL. That's all I can say. I think we were there for like an hour? Half an hour? LOL. I don't know. It was cold in there though.

Then we go back upstairs. When we get up Michael is the first to get off the elevator and Tia locks him out and we go back down. LOLOLOL. It was so retarded. x]

When the door was about to close I failed at attempting the " WOOOOO!! " AHAHAHA. x]

They eventually forced me into going to Cue. HAHA. Michael tried getting the Domo out of the crane thing, that shit was wierd. O_O HAHA.

So yeah we got into a booth took pictures blah blah. HAHA. That was an experience. :p

So we get out and we meet up with Jed and Remie. About 5 minutes later, I had to go. So everything got all homo with Michael. HAHA. And Tia strangled me with her awesome hugs again. x]

So we all left to go to Starbucks.

Man, that stuff was alright. We were at Starbucks for like 2 hours!! Damn. -_-

We eventually get a call from Jack that we should head to his house, which was like down the street by the way. We get some McDonalds beforehand and the lady fucked up my order and I don't get my cheeseburger. THAT BITCH.

So we get to Jack's house... By the time we get in his drive-way Jed, Remie, and I were blasting Birthday Sex HAHAHA. Happy Birthday!! xD

So yeah the day started off slow. Everyone was playing Street Fighter and I sucked balls at it.

Eventually they got to put in Virtua Fighter. HEHE. I win in that game. =D

OOOOOOOO, ALI CAME. AHA.

Eventually... The beer pong started. HAHAHA. Everyone was so intense about it! xD

HAHA. ESPECIALLY REMIE. HAHA. He was already fucked up. Wayyyy passed being buzzed. LMAO. HAHAHAH. He was in denial for being drunk too. HAHAA. Nigger couldn't stand up straight! xD

So yeah they played a few rounds of beer pong and then Jack's birthday shots started.

Jon got fucked over after 1 shot, because I guess he's more used to lots of beer than one shot. He like knocked out! xD He fell asleep at the couch and that was the end of him.

AHA.

Everyone but me and Jed eventually got fucked up so we started listening to Joel's little 4 chord make-up songs. HAHA.

They were all about Remie. HAHAHA. He named one song about him and Remie goes " HEY WHO'S REMIE? =D " HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. Funniest shit ever! HAHA.

SO yeah... Remie eventually knocks out on the couch himself! And Jed, Ali, and I have to get the fuck out. So we left.

Everyone was worried that Jed was driving because he had like 5 cups of beer from beer pong. But we chilled out for about an hour and he was fine.

The ride home was like alright. Exept Jed was driving really slow just to be safe. Atleast he wasn't swerving and shit on the freeway.

Anyways I eventually got home.

And now i'm sitting here talking to Tia and Jacob.

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My bad to Tia and Michael for having to leave early. .___. I could've stayed like 2 hours longer but I felt bad for making those two wait doing nothing so yeah. TIA SHOULD SEND ME THOSE CUE PICTURES BY MAIL. YEAH?

I need to hang out with Darren soon, he just came back from the Philippines today. =D

Man today was pretty fun. :]

I've never thought I would see Remie be so fucked up!! HAHAHAA.

I have to upload so many pictures tomorow from the party. HAHAHAHA. So funny! x]

It was nice seeing Tia and Michael today. =D

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Damn, i'm going to miss Jacob. No homo though, but that nigger is gooing to be like gone, because he's going to be on the road to Canada, and he can't text because of the phonebill. SO he has to wait 3 days 'till he starts talking again. Damn that sucks. -_- It means not so much webcamming nights either. >< Man it's going to be quieeeet.

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Hmmm, damn I need to sleep soon. I have to wake up HELLA early like 10:30 to go eat Dimsum again. -_-'

Shiiit, Jacob just signed off. -_-' Great. Now I won't be talking to that nigger for like 3 days...

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Okay this is a long blog. HAHA. It's starting to feel like Summer again. =D

I got really bored.

I'm sorry my shoes aren't as good as Mikeys. T_T

HAHA. Re-laced.

Before;







After;







Yeah, I don't have SB laces. HAHAHA. :[

Thursday.

Man it's either I feel like i've been awake for 2 days in a row. Or I slept and it feels like a new day.

I just know that I was up with Sophia all night, then we fell asleep. She ended up waking up at 1, and I woke up by 4pm. HAHA. Yeah.

Anyways the rest of the day was just pretty relaxing. I was surprisingly in a good mood throughout the day so that's good.

I've been webcamming all day! HAHA. I had fun.

I got $30 from my parents today. SO YEY for me, I have money for the weekend. ;D

I've been spending the entire night looking through shoes... Yeah, I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me either. HAHA. But i've been getting memerized by Lobsters, New Castles, or just some Dunk Mid TVs. HAHA. Mannnnn i'm drooling right now! T_T

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

But yeah, I guess I should start saving up and spending less on tuning cars on Wangan and just playing the game...

Moving on.

At one point Princess was texting me, and she was trippin' out! HAHA. But then it got quiet with her so I guess she got bored with me.

So anyway...

I have no idea what got into for having a good day today, really. I don't know. HAHA. I just hope it phases through for today too.

Damn I have a dentist appointment today. FML.

Mhhmm, I finally got to make some plans for next week. =D WOO.

I'm going to go watch Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince with the bestfriend. :]

And that was my day. HAHA. Not much, but pretty good over all.

Oh, and like the first day of the week I didn't touch the PS3. HAHAHA.


Tia and Michael need to stop picking on me yo'.

So.

I have just finished reading my entire blog from January 'till today. Man, i've been through so much. I feel like a hypocryte. I would say i'm changed, but then a couple posts later i'm back to my old self again. There were so many great memories I have read through that it's still vivid in my mind.

I could still remember April 3 and April 4. By far the best days of my year to be honest. Second to June 27.

Man who ever tries to read my entire blog, have fun. There's just so much into it.

I guess it was just weird how I started blogging in January and have been blogging straight 'till today. My whole 2009 has been logged in and I can always look back on the good times and the bad times.

Man, just so much in the past 2 hours of my Thursday morning.

After reading everything it just opened my mind up to appreciating what is now and the people that are taking part in my life.

I should be more greatful, open minded, and try to keep positive as much as possible.

And this time... I won't be a hypocryte about what I just said. :D I'm true to my word from this morning...




Exept maybe on some days...

Okay.

So another post typed out early in the morning.

I really need to start sleeping earlier, or my Summer is going to be fucked and will lead me from missing out on certain things because I wake up to effing late.

Today I woke up at 3PM, I know. So wierd. I felt so nostalgic though. I think it was from my dream but yeah.

I was pissed off the whole time, and I basically starved 'till it was 5:30PM.

Nothing interesting happened throughout the day exept I got to talk to Keilah after so many days of not having to. I tried to make plans, but nothing really popped into my head of what to do later today. So I was like " Let's think of something to do on Sunday. " and that was that.

The rest was filled up with 3 hours of 2k9. Surprisingly I had some self control over me today and I stopped playing by 9PM.

I got some Pringles and some chocolate covered raisins and munched on that.

I eventually got in the shower and washed up. God I felt so refreshed after.

Then I ate more Pringles...

Oh btw, at one point in the day I almost put the Pringles in the fridge. HAHAHA.

The rest of my night was just so boring.

I just watched YouTube and tried to keep conversations going but I failed.

Jacob is still awake in his R.V. right now at Lake Tahoe, but i'm too lazy to text that nigger anymore, so i'll just wake him up later.

I was watching Usher's cover of Gone Too Soon for Michael Jackson's Memorial thing earlier. Man that was so emotional. :/

So yeah that was my Wednesday.

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Today I learned that everyone is too busy having fun or have practices now. Gian told me Rendell got injured so that fucking sucks. I am still in that agitated/pissed off/don't really care about you right now kind of mood. Oh and I think I have insomnia. Because I can't sleep at proper times anymore. HAHA, I learned that word through Amy. x] OH YEAH, and Amy's been talking to me lately. I guess that's good. More people to talk to. x] I noticed that I always feel bad for not replying at stuff whether it'd be text/comments/and other stuff from other people. Because in the end I think about it and go :/ , but whatever. No ones been blogging anything lately, it's so quiet. Oh so I clicked Mikey's link for ISS, and it led me to sevaral threads on the forum for size 8.5 shoes. x] Fuck yeah. I've been watching too much of Old NBA lately. But it's just so good compared to today's game. Everyone played so good back then. Especially Allen Iverson, oh my god. A 6 foot guard who can score and drive the lane that good? I want to be like him. HAHA.

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So what's my plan for today?

Wake up early even though I don't want to. Try to be nice or act positive for the day. TRY to play ball. <_< Play Street Fighter and start training myself because I suck balls at it. Get through 5 games of NBA 2k9. Make up a team for 2k9. Get tired of some sort. And sleep properly. Yeah how boring.

FML.

OH, Hi Sophia! xD

Another late night.

It's 5AM. I can't believe i'm blogging this late... Or should I say early....

The suns starting to rise up.

Well anyway. Max told me the it's he hates Tuesdays. I do too.

Fuck Tuesdays. Nothing you can do or say to make me change my mind unless something really crazy happens.

I woke up pretty pissed off. Because the one time that my body is wanting to sleep, I have to fucking wake up.

So I eventually wake up and get my ass on the computer. I just get pissed of from there, I don't want to talk about it because yeah...

But basically that ruins my day.

I then go with my mom to the facial appointment my parents are making me go to.

FUCK THAT SHIT. SO FUCKING PAINFUL. FUCK THAT.

Why don't you fucks just let puberty do it's thing? <_<

FUCK. Most torturing hour of my Summer. Well physically that is.

I basically couldn't do anything after because My face was stinging like a bitch, and it would suck to play ball like I wanted to and sweat all over my face with my face acting up like that.

So I go home, i'm basically so agitated i'm slamming everything that can open or close. Throwing shit around and yeah.

My parents try to ease the atmosphere up by being realy polite and putting up with me. But I can't really do or say anything because i'm just so agitated. I was quiet the whole day. And I was wasted another 4 hours of my life playing 2k9. FML.

I did the usuals and that's basically my night.

Now it's 5AM. I need to really do something today. No matter what the fuck it is. Which means i'm turning on the alarm and waking up early.

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Today I learned that i'm letting everything get to me so fucking easily. I need to stop being so nice, because it's not getting me anywhere with some things. No one really wants to hang out or maybe i'm just thinking too much. I've been inside the house too much and it's getting to me. Oh, and I can't raelly listen to my itouch anymore because it's full of love songs that just piss me the fuck off.

Why?

Because it's really retarded to be listening to love song without anyone to think of. Call me wierd/crazy/wow I don't care. That's how I do it. It's just really pointless.

I hate it when it gets around that time where I just can't listen to anything. It makes everything so quiet.

*sigh

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So today, I talked to you after so many days of not really having a conversation. I don't really know what's come to me, but I kind of like you. Just a little bit. Haha... I don't really know. But yeah, I just wanted to let that out. Because as time passed by everything is just on and off in my head about this, but right now that's all that's passed inside my head. >< I don't know. Lol.





SO yeah.

Another exciting day at home.

I woke up pretty late and I was starving.

So I call my dad, since there's seriously no food in the house to really eat.

Half an hour later McHeartAttack comes. :] woooooot.

I turn the AC on again, because it was getting ridiculously stuffy in the house again.

After I eat, all I did was mope around and play PS3 'till it got dark practically.

-_-' FML.

I seriously fucked up Association on 2k9 by the way, so time to restart and play it right with a new team. TIME FOR THE MAGIC! =D

Anyways.... After I got extremely bored and scored 100 points with J.R. Smith... I went out to get some sp.... FML I FORGOT HOW TO SPELL IT...

harroharroron (3:36:02 AM): i forgot how to spell spaghetti?
harroharroron (3:36:02 AM): wtf
harroharroron (3:36:03 AM): LOL
SJ Lazy Boy (3:36:07 AM): SPA
SJ Lazy Boy (3:36:08 AM): GHE
SJ Lazy Boy (3:36:08 AM): TTI

harroharroron (3:36:11 AM): how do you spell spagetti
harroharroron (3:36:11 AM): lolol
ayotia (3:36:18 AM): spaghetti

FML, I asked two people to know how to spell spaghetti... -_-

Anyways I ate that from Chow King which my parents brought home. :] It was so good, and there's another one for breakfast. =D

So I get back to my room and sit like I usually do staring at my computer screen.

Sophia sends me a text to say what's up and such. :] That was nice. You're one of the few that hardly does that. Hahaha. I guess I should do it myself because if I keep waiting for people to talk to me nothing is ever going to happen. But I think i'm so boring. -_- Or that people think I get so annoying in a conversation. D:<

I always have that self doubt on me.

Anyways she cuts the conversation short and she goes to bed.

So I sit and stare 'till 2AM until I get my lazy to shower.

Now I sit and stare again and now i'm sitting here blogging while talking to Tia and Mikey again. How fun. -_-'

*sigh

Hopefully I get to play ball tomorow as planned, if not i'll listen to what Mark said and just play by myself. I need a ball though. ><

Oh and, WHY IS IT EVERY NIGHT THAT PASSES I GET MORE AND MORE AND MORE HUNGRY?! WHAT THE HELL.

I think i'm going to go get a snack.

PS.
I changed the ISO and shutter speed on my d60 now my pictures are somewhat clearer and stuff without using flash in a yellow lit up room. ;D LOL, AND I FORGOT I COULD CHANGE THE WHITE BALANCE. FML. Now everything doesn't have to be ALL YELLOW. ;D

I guess i'm not alone.

I need to get my ass to Rowland. Maybe because, I haven't been in the area for like 2 weeks i've been like this.

Being there with everyone else, is like being at an oasis for me. Gets my mind off of everything so easily.

It's so wierd.

I forget everything problem here when i'm there. Maybe because all I do is play Wangan all day and not think about anything else. HA. -_-'

Over and over and over and over and over and over again.

Here I am, thinking and losing myself to these stupids thoughts.

Man, I hate my life.

I can never get a day anymore, where everything is peaceful and relaxing.

I can't have a day when my fucking mom gets all koo-koo in the head when i'm all nice and quiet in the living room watching television while being on the laptop, with her slamming doors and shit telling me to go to my room when i've been in my fucking room for the entire fucking week.

I just don't get it. It's not fair. I know I sounded like a kid saying " It's not fair. " But it's true. I haven't done anything wrong. I'M SITTING THERE RELAXING SOMEWHERE ELSE INSIDE THE HOUSE OTHER THAN MY ROOM FOR ONCE, AND YOU GO CRAZY YELLING AT ME AND SHIT. FUCK.

I'm getting tired of things being one-sided all the fucking time. What's the point anymore?

I always have these feelings that go absolutely no where being spit at, back at me all the fucking time in the fucking end.

It doesn't make sense.

Okay, now i've just re-read what I typed and I already sound retarded, but that's okay.

I'm sick and tired for waiting to have that one day where everything goes oposite of what is now, but in a good way.

I can't take the feeling of lonelyness anymore.

No one's really been talking to me lately, other than Tia and Mikey. But that doesn't really help does it? I don't even see any of them.

My phones been awfully quiet again. Ever since I got that text that night from you, i've been ever so hungry for my phone to ring.

But not anymore. Maybe it was just that time. Maybe the only reason you bothered talking to me was because you were bored. Because isn't that how most people usually talk to me? When their bored. Then the next time I say " hi " the conversationg dies on the 4th response? I don't know. Maybe I thought about that one too much.

I feel so alone. But I guess I've found something to keep my mind off of it. That's why i've been playing 2k9 so endlessly. But even that's not keeping from typing this right now.

I feel like Tia right now. I guess i'm surrounded by many but I still feel alone?

But I can't even think about THAT many people surrounding me.

Maybe I just need that one person, but then again I just make myself sound desperate bringing this up.

People I mention this to say to me that I should not revolve my world around a significant other, but maybe because they've experienced that type of attention before.

I never had anything like that come close to my life before. I wouldn't know what it's like.

It's hard to go out now because the people I usually hang around with always has their special someone with them, so I just stand aside and feel like shit like always.

I feel like some people are keeping their distance from me.

No one really tries to stick around and understand other than Tia. That doesn't really help much. Thanks Tia though.

I just wish it can be like before, where everytime before I sleep I would be texting you all night 'till we fall asleep. The time where my phone would always vibrate every minute with messages that brought smiles to my face.

I just want that again, with someone.

Now everything is quiet.

It's so quiet.

I think i'm thinking too fucking much again. But I can't hide from this and keep finding new things to side-track from it.

I need to start getting out soon. Because I feel like i'm just isolating myself too much being in a room by myself for an entire week for several hours not seeing anyone.

I think i've gone crazy, you tell me. Oh but hey no one really tries to talk now. But hey, I don't even know who reads this.

ps.

Re-reading this the third time just made me think about it seriously, maybe I don't need that type of thing I don't know. I say I need it now, but in the end I don't.

Shit I need something to go down soon. -_-'

Lately,

I have not been myself. I feel like as if my body is on auto-pilot for the past 2 days.

Friday didn't really go as planned...

I woke up really late, and the rest of the day wasn't really fantastic. So there's not much I can say about Friday.

I ended up playing the PS3 'till about 8:45AM. Yeah I know... I have no life. -_-'

But I just couldn't get myself to sleep! I never felt tired. D:<

I noticed that the sun went up REALLY EARLY during Saturday morning.

It was up by 6AM. You would think it'd be up a little later, but it was so bright. -_-'

Man, Mikey and I were like trippen' out because it was so bright already.

harroharroron (5:57:58 AM): shit the sun is out
harroharroron (5:57:59 AM): O_O
harroharroron (5:58:00 AM): fml
harroharroron (5:58:01 AM): -_-
SJ Lazy Boy (5:58:04 AM): I KNOW
SJ Lazy Boy (5:58:06 AM): ITS SO BRIGHT ALREADY
SJ Lazy Boy (5:58:08 AM): WTF SUN
harroharroron (5:58:10 AM): WTF
SJ Lazy Boy (5:58:10 AM): IT'S ONLY 6
SJ Lazy Boy (5:58:13 AM): I KNOW
SJ Lazy Boy (5:58:14 AM): ITS SO BRIGHT

HAHAHA.

I ended up sleeping by the time I finished the PS3.

God damn, my wake up wasn't so happy. IT WAS FREAKING HOT! D:

And I barely had time to even get myself settled. By the time I woke up I had an hour to shower and get ready and shit. I was half asleep the entire time.

The ride there was freaking long. Oh man. How I forgot how far it is to Murrieta.

By the time we got there IT WAS FREAKING HOT! LIKE HELLA HOT, AND I WAS WEARING A FLANNEL.

LOL, that flannel didn't stay on long. -_-'

I would think my uncle would have had the AC on in the house like it usually is during the parties, but not today. -_-'

Me and my cousins just chilled out for like 2 hours blasting music in my dad's car because it had an ipod jack in it.

We eventually went in the house. I napped for like 10 or 5 minutes? I couldn't really keep comfortable, because it was FREAKING HOT.

I went outside because it was so cold, and played ball. HAHA. I beat my uncle and cousin. :]

Okay so now to the part where the night was practically hard gay and ruined.

We left the house in 3 cars to go watch the fireworks...

We get to the street and make a U-turn. So as we were going to get into the lot where we were going to watch, there was a red light...

I was in the van with like 10 people while my dad and uncle followed with a car ahead behind us.

So as we were waiting for the light to turn green....

SOME FUCKTARD ON THE FUCKING PHONE AND WAS POSSIBLY DRUNK BUMPED THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF THE VAN.

We moved up like so much. I was kinda trippin' out, because I started thinking what if that asshole went faster you know?

We had a little baby in the back seat, on the side where the dumbass hit.

So my aunt loses her cool, puts the van on park, turns off the engine, and goes out. So you see her talk to the guy.

We eventually pull out to the parking lot...

Now here, everyone's like all tense and trippin' out and shit. <_<

I come out, and check on the bumper.

IT WAS ABOUT TO FALL OFF.

The dumbass pulled a hit-and-run on us, because my aunt said they talked about meeting at that parking lot and exchanging their shit, my uncle said the guy made an illegal U-Turn from where we were at the crash and blasted off. My uncle was going to follow, but the red light went on again, and there was a cop on the other side.

So gg.

We then spent the next 2 hours getting everyone home because we had to keep the van there, so we had to make seperate trips on the two cars.

Blah blah blah.

Basically no fireworks. <_< It was so boring waiting for nothing.

We stood outside a carwash waiting for something for about an hour.

I was starving.

And yeah. That shit was fucking horrible. <_<

We eventually made it back to my aunt and uncle's house, and I played 2k9 with my cousin like we planned the first time I got there.

We never finished the game but I proved my point to him. :]

I had to leave after.

Man, July 4ths are getting worse and worse for me. <_<

Hardly any of my cousins and other relatives were around.

It wasn't much of what I expected. I'm growing to be more and more different from them.

Meh. I guess this was what my horoscope meant.

I don't know what the family problem exactly is, but it's best I keep it to myself before I make a dumbass or asshole out of myself.

*sigh

I guess i'm not sleeping at Jacob's later today either.

I still have to make plans for tomorow, because it's the last time i'm going to see that nigger before he goes to Canada for a month. -_-'

Hmmm.

GAH.

I'm sleeping early today.

So let's see about my Thursday.

I woke up...






Got on the computer...






Had lunch...






Watched Star Wars III...






Went back on the computer...






Cleaned the closet...

Before






After






Then I played some 2k9...






I feel proud for getting the Pacers all the way to the Finals...






I decided to take a shower...






But then I also decided to take a picture before the shower...






I had my, now usual, late night snack...






Then I eventually did this...






It all ends with the computer.....






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Anyways, I don't have anything else to say about my day. That's all that basically happened. Nothing out of the ordinary or interesting happened throughout the day. I'm kind of pissed about plans not going through later on today. <_< But I guess i'm lucky I can quickly plan out alternate plans. Hopefully I wake up and get ready by 1:30PM. HAHA.

Mmmm, i'm going to Murrieta tomorow. I'm going to make it the best day of my week. Being at home all week, I think it somewhat got all my stress out in some way. And I have once again found the inner happiness in my life. :] <- LOL, I read it myself and it sounds funny. x]

Mmm, Basketball today. With the usuals and with the not so usuals. We'll see how today goes. TIME TO ATTACK THAT MOTHA FUCKIN' PAINT!


Oh and Princess, if you do read my blogs...

You should know that i'm always awake. x] You could've talked to me if you needed someone.

Okay, it's 4:48AM. Time to hit the bed again...

But since Tia said something about my Flickr, I have to go fix it, because it's bothering me now. <_<

*le sigh

GOODMORNING.

PS.
harroharroron (4:55:03 AM): ive been having too much time on my hands this week. -_-
ayotia (4:55:11 AM): a lil bit
ayotia (4:55:14 AM): ^_^

So I made one.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/harroharroron/

DAMNIT.

I'm going to be up for a while... And doing stupid things...

OH AND I WANT THIS SOOOO BAAAAD.







oh my god, my phone hasn't rung this much in a while...

Why do I miss you so much right now? -_- I mean I just had to say it because to be honest I did. But why do I miss you so much NOW? Everytime, I move on. You come back in some way. It's torture. I should just give up.

I wonder if YOU read this...

MY ROOM...

IT LOOKS KINDA AWESOME.

Because of that, i'm going to take pictures later tonight. ;D

As promised... Yeah I got real bored...

Mmmm...


































SO like, this is the highlight of my day. FML. HAHA.

HEHEHEHEHE, FAUX YEAH !

<3

HAHA, DAMN I DRINK TOO MUCH.

LOLOLOLOL.

harroharroron (3:46:42 AM): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJsjJVPeEOo&feature=related
harroharroron (3:46:51 AM): putting a sticker on the car now just for the shits
serenityiix (3:47:26 AM): i swear dog, if you put flames on your car ill fucking kill you
harroharroron (3:47:58 AM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHHAAHAH
harroharroron (3:48:01 AM): OKAY OKAY.
harroharroron (3:48:03 AM): hahahahaha.
serenityiix (3:48:16 AM): thats a promise dog
harroharroron (3:48:25 AM): xD

ayotia (3:48:17 AM): serenityiix (3:48:16 AM): but foreal. thats a fucking promise.

OLD SCHOOL JAMS.

THAT SHIT CHEERS YOU UP SO GOOD!

FOR THE PAST 2-3 HOURS THAT'S ALL TIA AND I HAVE BEEN DOING.

We've been sending links back and forth to these old ass songs. ;]

So fun. ;D

Shit's getting me hyper. So chilled out.

I haven't blogged in the longest time.

These past 5 days have been so crazy.

I just didn't have anything in me during Friday to blog, because I just felt like complete shit the entire day to be honest. I just can't seem to be in that position. I'm trying to live a life that doesn't revolve around girls or getting with them. (same shit) But being in that position just makes me go " fuck my life " .

I just can't handle going to places with that kind of atmosphere anymore. There's just no point.

Saturday was like my stress-reliever. It seriously was. It was my first time to go to Knotts and ACTUALLY ride the rides there. I was being such a pussy yelling the entire time during the rides yelling out profanities the entire time. Man. -___-' I never knew I can scream so loud. But all that adrenaline did get so much of my chest. It was a really fun day. It's probably going to be the most memorable days of my Summer.

Sunday was just a chill day. Even though it was fucking hot. Hottest day of Summer so far. Nothing special during that day. Just full of rest and such. Oh and I had Boba that day. Now that I think about it. I want some now. D:

Monday's significance was basketball. I watched basketball and played basketball. ALL DAY. Atleast I got some sort of fitness workout after sitting at home doing nothing and stuff.

Tuesday was such a last minute make this shit happen day. I put so much concentration and thought into the things I did and will have done and did today. All of that thinking did pull-through. It gave me a relaxing night. Until now.

Right now, I am thinking about so much. It's fucking ridiculous to be honest. 1 minute I was so happy and hyper the next i'm all thinking and all sad and shit. -___-'

The past keeps haunting me. Because all of my past is related to the people i'm associated with now.

I can't run or hide from it, because I see it or talk to it everyday.

Everything is just a " fuck my life " coincidence in my world.

Tia says everything happens for a reason. I really believe that, but the thing is...

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE REASON?

Nothing's ever clear to me, of why certain things happen and why in my life.



It seems like everything that has been happening ever since Summer started and when it started a new chapter during this night, is a forecast for every little thing that'll be happening in the future of this Summer... Maybe even beyond it. Or maybe i'm just thinking too fucking much right now.