now there's an aching pain in my back,

3 days until my birthday. And I am as depressed as ever. fml man.

right now i feel so,

lonely.

i am really not. maybe it's the lack of a significant other that's making me feel like this. i feel like shit. i feel forgotten. i feel like i have no purpose.

once again...

it's almost my fifteenth birthday.

but in all seriousness, i'm not really all the hyped up...

gah. fmLl.

gah! fml. im really starting to think im getting desperate. every fucking day. nothing. fml. :(

fuck! nevermind,

Shit, maybe that was just nothing. <_< I don't know. Maybe I just got blinded yesterday. I don't know.

All I know is that, I feel like a dog. Because I sign on MySpace everyday hoping for something to show up. But nothing ever does.

I am not desperate. But I feel desperate.

fml. I need a girlfriend. :(

GOOD DAY.

:)
It really was. :) I think I am finally going somewhere with this! :) Have hope Ron! I can do this. One step at a time! :]

life decisions.

You are given the source. The source directs you to good things. Good things dont come cheap. Cheap things come from cheating.

Yes?

No?

My decision. :/







fmLl.

not FML.

lol.

two different things.

w00t

SIKE.

blah. :/

can't really think straight the whole week.

kay bye.

LAST MINUTE HANGOUTS ARE REALLY FUN.

thatoldf33ling (1:25:58 PM): so what are you gone do today?
harroharroron (1:26:13 PM): i dont know
harroharroron (1:26:20 PM): fuji says he has to photograph
harroharroron (1:26:21 PM): so w.e.
harroharroron (1:26:24 PM): i dont know what tod o
harroharroron (1:26:24 PM): lol
thatoldf33ling (1:26:28 PM): lol
thatoldf33ling (1:26:31 PM): well
thatoldf33ling (1:26:43 PM): if you have the money
thatoldf33ling (1:26:46 PM): geoff was asking
thatoldf33ling (1:26:50 PM): if you wanna go to his pcn today
thatoldf33ling (1:26:53 PM): i can get you for it
harroharroron (1:26:56 PM): are you going?
thatoldf33ling (1:27:00 PM): yea
thatoldf33ling (1:27:02 PM): laura too
harroharroron (1:27:03 PM): what is it?
harroharroron (1:27:04 PM): o-o
thatoldf33ling (1:27:12 PM): filipino culture night
thatoldf33ling (1:27:15 PM): so like
harroharroron (1:27:17 PM): i see.
thatoldf33ling (1:27:18 PM): bunch of performences and stuff
harroharroron (1:27:21 PM): ahaha
harroharroron (1:27:28 PM): what time does it start.
harroharroron (1:27:28 PM): o-o
thatoldf33ling (1:27:32 PM): 7
harroharroron (1:27:44 PM): is it okay you pick me up?
harroharroron (1:27:45 PM): lol
thatoldf33ling (1:27:48 PM): yea its fine
thatoldf33ling (1:27:53 PM): cause i feel bad
thatoldf33ling (1:27:56 PM): that you have to stay home
harroharroron (1:27:56 PM): need gas?
thatoldf33ling (1:27:58 PM): cause of fuji
harroharroron (1:27:59 PM): ahaha
thatoldf33ling (1:27:59 PM): naw i got it
thatoldf33ling (1:28:01 PM): i got paid
harroharroron (1:28:04 PM): are you sure man
thatoldf33ling (1:28:07 PM): yea
thatoldf33ling (1:28:10 PM): this time its on me
thatoldf33ling (1:28:12 PM): dont worry
harroharroron (1:28:16 PM): alright.
thatoldf33ling (1:28:18 PM): as long as you can pay for your ticket
thatoldf33ling (1:28:21 PM): the tickets 12
harroharroron (1:28:21 PM): haha
thatoldf33ling (1:28:23 PM): is that fine?
harroharroron (1:28:23 PM): ight
harroharroron (1:28:26 PM): yee
harroharroron (1:28:32 PM): thanks mn
thatoldf33ling (1:28:34 PM): np
harroharroron (1:28:34 PM): *man
harroharroron (1:28:35 PM): lol
thatoldf33ling (1:28:46 PM): i can get you earlier for wangan
harroharroron (1:28:54 PM): are you playing?
harroharroron (1:28:54 PM): lol
thatoldf33ling (1:29:03 PM): maybe

yea. so then...

harroharroron (1:34:15 PM): we'll be back by 10 or later
harroharroron (1:34:16 PM): ?
thatoldf33ling (1:34:21 PM): yea around there
harroharroron (1:34:28 PM): kay kay
thatoldf33ling (1:34:29 PM): prob eat a lil after
thatoldf33ling (1:34:30 PM): then go home
harroharroron (1:34:33 PM): ight
harroharroron (1:34:43 PM): last minute hangouts end up fun
harroharroron (1:34:43 PM): lol
thatoldf33ling (1:34:48 PM): lol
thatoldf33ling (1:34:49 PM): yupp

uh huh uh huh...

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

So yea. I basically got picked up by 4:30 and me and Jed went straight to Ai. I went and he gave me a renamable Evo 9. Shit's fucking great!! I need to fix the setting though...... MOVING ON. So I raped a .TILT n00b 2 in a row before he quit. Then me and Jed left. Man I am so rusty. But I still got it! Well sorta.... BAHA.

So then me and Jed drive down to Geoff's HS...

OMG, SO MANY CUTE CUTE CUTE CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ASIAN GIRLS IN ONE FUCKING PLACE. I HAVE TO ADMIT. ihadone. YEA. SHIT WAS FUCKING GREAT. MY HS LOOKS LIKE SHIT COMPARED TO THAT. AND THAT WAS JUST THEIR GYM!! FUCKING SHIT MAN. FML.

I just kept saying "fml" in my head. Being in that scenery. Because that shit is never gonna happen to me. That was some highschool musical shit right there man. None of that kind of stuff ever happens where I go. And it never will. It's kinda sad. Plus my school's gym looks like shit compared to that too. >< Aye.

So yea... apart from the really cute girls in every corner part. Randolph Permejo and AJ RAFAEL PERFORMED AT THE INTERMISSION OF THE PCN. FUCKING AWESOME IT WAS.

Then more of the show and cute girls. Damn I saw this one reeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaally cute girl though. She looked like this one girl I liked in the beginning of the year. Damn. ><

After the show I got pictures with Aj and Randolph... I don't know when I am getting the picture with Randolph though. Cause it was prolly too dark or yea. Anywho.

We then went to Tommy's. BEST SHIT EVER. IT'S LIKE BETTER THAN IN-N-OUT in my opinion.

Then we went to Ai. That shit kinda killed the day. I wanted to go to cue for some reason. But meh whatever.





Overall, it was a fun rest of the day. Laast minute hangouts do end up being fun. I got to know Laura more. Or atleast talk to her today. :] Haha. Because I have seen her before, but we never bothered talking till today. XD I haven't seen Geoff since how long so it was nice to see that homo today. :] Then yea. It was pretty chill... AND SEXY. :p

OH. I am going to edit this with pictures later. :]

FUCKINGAWESOMEASSPARTYBETCH

BESTESTESTEST PARTY EVAR!! W00T.

YEA. I didn't even know it was gonna be this fucking awesome during that day. But then it was!! xD Shit was the shit. That's all I can say. The only thing that is bothering me at the moment is that, Keilah hasssssssssssss allllllllmost alllllll the damn pictures and she won't be back till Sunday. Cause' she's going to Vegas tomorow. D:

Blah w.e. Is' all good in the neighborhood betch.

"I'm talking fast cars, bright lights, big city, LONG NIGHTS!"
-The Dream


ps.
I am sick. :[

no internet

damn so my internet got cut for the night cause my bipolar ass mom...



today was okay. nothing much was interesting.

highlights of the day were;

-me pulling a "kobe" at pe. w00t.
-PAYO meeting
-english was hella out of control
-geometry =_=
-afterschool (singing along with keilah and jeb baha)
-7thgrade scrubby girls bball. fucking intense!! xD
-bball at jebs
-me listening to ipod
-playing with phone again to see what's better

hella tired, again

but i must do homeowrk and study for the quiz. only a little bit more ron. sleep can wait. the D- on that computer can't. =_=

*sigh

Man today was fucking HOT. Jeesh. Sweating ballz. Plus it was HELLA boring. Oh well.

kbai.

everyday

Man. -_- If only, if only.





NEED TO GROW SOMEFUCKING BALLS RON !

8-)

hhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
mmmmmmmmmmmmhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
<3
I seriously can't stop thinking about it, her, in my mind. :]
I don't know. It's an infatuation.
BEHEHE. :]

AND IM ALWAYS SO HAPPY AT NIGHT LATELY. BAHA. WTF MANG. YO YO BOMBDIGITTY YO!


























ps.
i fell hard. ;]

ANNOYED

AND STRESSED.

FML

lame

today was absolutely lame. i am skipping homework tonight. i am craving wangan and some basketball. hahahaha. ight, goodnight.

FACEBOOK.

add me nigguhs.
:]

search Ron Arboleda . YOU CAN NOT MISS ME.

im gonna ask bobby tomorow for a link.

Coldplay

There's something with them to me that makes their music so epic. I don't know. I've been listening to them for the past two hours though. It's uplifting for some reason. Then some just chill you out for a sec. One song literally put me into slow motion for a sec and got me thinking. Another song got me to accept. One song is truly my favorite, Life In Technicolor II. This is the shit right here. It can put my bored/sad/mad mood into content/happy/great mood. It's fucking great.

That's basically the highlight of my day. I didn't really do anything today. Exept go to Shakeys and get irritated.

I was also helping Mark on what to get Glanda specifically for her birthday haha.

I got a goodmorning today. Leoroye called and got goodmornings from Vivian haha. I was like " Whoa what the hell? She's at your house?! " Then I figured out that she got her mic to work.

Later that night we ended up going to iminlikewithyou.com with Timmy and we just tallked through the mic. I thought that was fun.

She later then signed off, and me and Jacob just kept talking. HAHA. Randomess shit in this convo I am serious.

Now I am here listening to Viva La Vida. Memories are going in once more and I reminice....


PS.
Something wierd happened this morning to me... I had a dream I was running the some track meet for some reason. For some odd reason when I was running there was no friction whatsoever and my legs were like a machine and never wanted to stop. Same with my breathing! I felt unstoppable. Then right before I woke up all I remember was my legs felt like bricks. I felt all the friction again. I felt slow. Everything went in slow motion. Then I literally slipped into awakenning. It was pretty awesome. AHA. But yea. But this is the wierd part. My legs felt numb and sore for half an hour after that....

THE LIGHTS ARE MOTHER FUCKING OUT BETCH .

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

I got my shot improved once again!!!!! I can still feeeeeeeeeeeel this shit betch. Ima try it out soon. :]

132-130 -_-

School was slow. After school was slow but fun.

I got out of class, then I get a text from Princess asking where I was. So yea. She said "Vivian said go to the front :)" So yea. I walk up meet with them, said bye to the other girls (Julia, Zuryan) then walked to the front front. I saw Monika and Larry. Then we walked to Brookhurst. HAHA. I had to carry her bag. I felt GAY!! Bahaha. Then she was walking around with her ginormous winterguard flags. XD

So we get to Brookhurst looking for everyone. So we see Alexis and then got hugs then met with everyone else. Same thing. Basically everything was all bombeezy from here.

SO SOMEWHERE THERE I ALMOST GOT JUMPED. HAHA.

So we all wait in the back (Rendell, Leoroye, Alexis, me) for Alexis to get picked up. Me and her took a lot of pictures and stuff. HAHA. Then she got picked up.

So we all go to In-N-Out and get the grub then go to my house to watch some of the Lakers pwn. Then played 2k9. The first few games I got raped in the ass. The third game. It was head to head with the Hornet(Rendell) vs Heat(me). SHIT WAS INTENSE MANG. WE WENT TO OVERTIME! AND I MADE D-WADE SCORE 109!! THEN I FUCKING LOST IN OVER TIME BY RENDELL MAKING A CHEAP ASS BUZZER SHOT!! 132-130. GG Rendell! BAHAHA.

AND somewhere there we were all high on the freaking floor laughing our asses off like dumbasses to god knows wtf. XD

OH AND PAYO SEEMS INTERESTING!! :D

kbai. :p

GREAT DAY. GG.

TAKE THAT BACK

it was a GOOOOD day today.

now im craving.


=_=

WAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNN.

FLASHBACKS

fuck this morning. gah. why does stuff like this make me stress out SO MUCH. D: it's fucking retarded. i cant stand this shit anymore. i was eating today and every fucking thing that went through my mind were flashback! wtf. it's fucking bullshit. -_- shit wont get off my mind.

so now im infront of schoool. and i have to fucking wait till like 10 fucking something to get in. plus my hands are fucking freezing to the point of they are numb. fucking bs. no one to talk to and everyone around are fucking beaners. <_< FML.

im thinking of studying for the geometry test today. just for the shit of it. w.e..

fuck! this mother fucking bullshit.

STOP FLASHING IN AND OUT!

FUCK.

i so have a bad fucking feeling today is gonna be a bad day. even though i got 8 hours of sleep, that shit doesnt matter.

last night this shit already started.
















(anyone who is lost read last night's blog)

randomass tuesday? HELL YEA.

Today kinda slowed down in comparison to yesterday. Nothing special. Exept I just worked and fell asleep like usual. HAHA. I was happy all day.

Then I came to Brookhurst. I was happy there too. I was also happy when I played and tag. LOL.

Then the choir show. I felt lonely and sad by the end of the night. Also right now.

There's always something with couples that makes me feeel soooo desperate. Maybe cause I never got a chance to experiance this kind of stuff with anyone before. I dones't know. All I know is that I want it. Yes I sound desperate, but I am just speaking my mind.

I shouldn't let it get to my head though. Because it'll just devour me inside out like before and i'll be back from where I was. THAT WON'T HAPPEN.

I'll catch some ZZZs now so I am all energied up for tomorow.

GOODNIGHT.

great day

I knew it! Today was a great day. It moved craazy fast. I got a 7:35 on my mile. I didn't beat the one I did in the beginning which was a 7:16, but oh wells. I can run consistent 7s now. That's good. Then lunch was pretty chill. HAHA. IT MOVED BY FAST!! Then English was just chill all together. :D The plays were bombeeeeeezy! Then Geometry. Meh, I thought that shit was chill too. The quiz I didn't guess all fucking questions for once. I believe I should miss around 3-4 problems. :]

After school was okay. I saw Vivian for a quick second. Gave her a hug and sped off to Brookhurst. I was there for FIFTEEN minutes. BAHA. Everyone left early. SO. Me and Jeff walked to his casa. MAN that walk was fast or what. >< His house got nicer for some reason. Fucking Jeff's room is pretty chill. Not all ghetto saliva smelling like anymore. XD

Then I got picked up, went to Korean BBQ and chilled with the fambam for like two hours. GREAT FOOD LIKE ALWAYS. Then I got home and procrastinated.

I watched the Lakers get GGed and Rudy Fernandez get GGed HARD. XD Same goes for the recap for the Bulls@Heat game. XD

I spent a majority of my day talking to Vivian and "cheering" her up. HAHA. SO yea. I feel very sociable today for some reason. I'm gonna try and keep it this wayyyyyy.

Today moved by so fast for a Monday.

TOMOROW IS RANDOM TUESDAYS. BAHA. I'll see what up. For now, I think ima go and do the below.

vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv


:D YEEEEEE.

monday.

bleh. i stayed up till 4 last night. shit was wack.
i didnt know my shit was gonna take that long. D:
i didnt even finish anything but the script and i was half asleep doing it!!
*sigh
well today should be a good day none the less my fucking dad bitching out at me like everymorning.
blah.
i needa study and do some hw. D:
peace out.

FML

i have to do DJs, a script, and then geometry. and im half asleep again. FML

i knew i shouldve done my shit earlier. i was HOME ALL DAY! what did i do? waste my fucking time. fucking great. *sigh

procrastination. #2

friday;

so friday. nothing much happened. just turned in my shit and yea. i got good grades on them so my D will fucking go up like someone getting high! :D yea. then the end of the day started with jeff apologizing and shet. then. tag at the park where i FELL AGAIN. my arm still hurts on the side. >< then went to leoroye's practice, i found an open court and played with scrubs. fucking wack, but oh well. then got to my house. that ended up boring. so yea.

saturday;

remie picks me up by like 8:45 am. fucking wack. i was starving the whole time. so we get to super, and get some starbucks. a girl saw me staring at her.... FAIL. so yea we meet up with everyone. and i met JB. i still have no idea who he is. ROFL. freaking edward pulls up in a Z4 coupe. rich ass ballin mofo. D: HAHA. so we all go inside super for a little bit. and i played wangan for a bit. fucking super needs to fix their machines. <_< then we all cram for the road to LA. shit was stuffy. LOL. so yea we get to little tokyo. man. that arcade was full of fail. same with that place. atleast the prices went down on wangan. w.e. played blah. another girl caught me staring but this i time i caught her looking at me too. *sigh. SHE LOOKED LIKE APRIL. ROFL. blah blah. by the end of the day they saw lolifag. and yea. i fell in love with matt's grb too. ahah. overall im never going into japan arcade anymore. fucking place is deppressing and fucking quiet. <_< epic fail places. and arcade. *sigh. OH SHIT. FUCK. I FORGOT TO RAPE THIS NOOBS GHOST. D: nuuuuuu. >< oh well. some crazy creepy ass otakus there. and the old man was bitchy. the ramen was good too. shouldve tried that ice cream thing. oh well. so we drove back. and i fell asleep on the way. matt and edward got there fast and told us .tilt was there so we CBFed it. so we all went to in-n-out. oh yeaaaaaa. shit was great. later me and remie drove down to my area got jeb and nick and played L4D. they're shit is getting shitty now. i swear. *sigh. then we went to del taco that shit was bleh. then i got home. and knocked out on the couch for like half an hour. went on the comp for like 1 hour and saw some reyherks shit. then went to bed. practically knocked out after. over all=BLEH DAY

right now;

it's 4:15 and im craving wangan. ima start on GAY hw by like 630. haha. blah.

taking a break.

damn. it's either i really have a lot of hw. but idk. i just need to do this brochure. it should be easy. ^_^ im taking like a ten minute break right now. then ima finish and go to bed. it shouldn't be that hard. now that i looked over what i have to do, i should be done within an hour or so. I AM GONNA BE LESS NERDY LIKE BY REDUCING THE WEIGHT ON MY DAMN BACKPACK. yesssshhh. i have this like two or three inch binder at the moment... it's fucking ginormous. >< so what i'm gonna do, since most of my classes use notebooks. im just gonna use notebooks. time to be nerdy again. so ill type the schedule down and do my shit from there.

1)no period MINIMUM DAY w00t ;D
2)spanish 1, this class only uses a retarded workbook. win.
3)PE, i own. win.
4)photography, the teacher can suck it. i can raise my grade within two weeks cause i'm asian like that. OH, and this class uses. like little transparent paper safes. so yah. i need a way to keep those but for now it's all good.
5)english 1 HP, notebook. orz. win?
6)bio HP, win.
7)geometry HP, ima prove to these bastards i can be smart at this and show them i wasn't trying. fucking pricks. notebook? win.
8)health, zZzZzZz. notebook.


i can take like threee-fooour pounds off my back now that i think about it. WIN.

XD kay back to the brochure! :p

PRODUCTIVENESS.

PRODUCTIVENESS="ILOVEYOU"
PRCRASTINATION="FUCKYOU"

yea. xD

I did my homework like for reals LAST NIGHT. :O Awesome right?! So fucking proud of myself. I hope I do it again tonight. :p

ayayayayayayeeeeeee

god damn. ive never felt like this towards someone new before. >< oh man. D: i cant stop it. i must do something soon.

:D

harroharroron (11:31:10 PM): why am i so hungry, hyper, and happy lately
harroharroron (11:31:10 PM): XD
harroharroron (11:31:18 PM): i feel unstoppble
harroharroron (11:31:19 PM): : D

yea lawl.

time is moving slow, and yet so fast

im just so happy right now. for once im happy where i am in my point of life. i feel unstoppable. getting high off laughter is the best shit evah.

time is moving slow. it's like, im observing every second of it.

:]

cravings.

shit ive been craving a lot these past few days. and it feels good to crave, but then it can torture you to the point of death! :O jk. lawl. ive been craving wangan, but i can wait because of some reasons. annnnnnd theeeeeeeeennnnnn ive been craving some fruit. -_-" yes FRUIT! especially mangos. eversince i had one for desert shieeeeet. XD man. XD oh well.

:p

april

omg she played wangan!!
:O
OMG.
WOW
xD
:D
LOL.

k.

time for hw

sunday.

NBA.

boo.

XD



okay time to do hw.

BORED.

i officially hate that fucking word. retarded ass shit. <_< fuck man so bored! shit. mang. fuck shit. it really agitates me to the max.

fucking staying home gives me a headache and shit. fuck. wow.

theresnocombinationofwordsicanputonthebackofapostcard,

today. was quiet and happy. what a weird combination yea?

i will edit this for a THREE day summary now. damn my procrastination. xD


K

thursday;
i don't remember much from this now. but i do remember playing tag at the park with michelle don and tran, leoroyem and jeb. HAHA i fell four times chasing down michelle tran. xDDD then i got purple pants later that day. i then ate at this expensive ass resturant. fucking ten dollar soups and fifty dollar steaks. xD i got both. BAHAHA. yum. so yea.


friday;
so uneventful. D: the park was gay. andrew and everyone else needs to fucking chill out and stop being retards about nonsense.


saturday;
another uneventful saturday. i was "high" later that night.


sunday;
been watching NBA. celtics lose. lakers are about to lose. ive been giving april like a live feed. BAHA.

yea.
boring.
i cant really remember so yea.