Fuck it.

If this is the only way I can make myself move on from you, then let it be. Amy agreed with me that I should just enjoy life and stop getting heart broken. Because i've honestly been wasting my God given time on girls that make me want to fuck the world in the end, ALWAYS. I'm seriously tired of it. I feel like my chest is internally bleeding. It's been hurting and I really don't know how to fix it, nor I really want to. Because honestly? What's the point of this? Fix myself, find another girl to dwell upon, and end up in this position again? Rinse, lather, and fucking repeat. I'm really sorry. But I really thought I had it with you. I guess you never got the message and i've practically wasted my time and effort on nothing. You don't even understand me nor you can or even want to try and fix things with me. Now I know that you can tell i'm not in the mood to talk, but why don't you do something about it? I really expected that from you. It fucking hurts to know that you actually notice these type of things. "He doesn't seem like he wants to talk." Why don't you fucking do something? But why the fuck would I need the sympathy now when i'm fucking asking for it? It's fucking stupid. Yeah sure this song goes pretty deep, but really it's how I feel right now. Because of all the effort, time, and love i've put into absolutely nothing only to be left while you're with your bitch.

Good shit Varsity Rebels, 55-8. Tonight was crackin'. I needed it, but I need more of it.

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Fuck it. I don't give a fuck. Read me, but don't think you can fucking talk to me like you know me.

So now she's taken.

Again. I've lost, again. Oh well I never had the chance. I'm done. At least now I can focus on other shit. What a waste of the first few months of school huh? Fucking shit. I'm fucking stupid. This is stupid. I don't give a fuck. Well I do. Fuck it.