fuck

I just noticed.

Since i've been so sad and shit, I forgot about next week... I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO! That's fantastic. -_-'

Then, i'm running out of money. Even better. I should start hunting for coins and stuff again.


This is really stupid, but it's the only thing killing my days out. D: FML.

fuck it all.

I'm cutting this week off. I'm going to isolate myself until something worth going to or something worth it happens.

I'm having a really crappy week.

'Nuff said to be honest. We'll see if today adds to the crappyness. :l

But hey, i'm getting better at NBA 2k9. ;D

Fuck. <_<

Really.

Why is it everytime, that i'm on the verge of like forgetting about you, you happen to start talking to me. lol. It's like the world doesn't want me not talking to you.

D:

God, I don't know what to do.

I felt so stupid when I kept refreshing my page too. Hungry for a response. Even though I kept telling myself to stop.

I don't know, it's not that i'd feel bad for not replying. Just that there's still that part of me that wants to talk to you so much. There's still that part of me that wants to see you so much. :/

I don't know.

I guess, I should just let it all hang out right?

What else can I lose, exept maybe a friendship. But now that I think about it, kind of getting to know you, you don't seem to be like that.

I don't know.

D:

I'm tired of playing go fish and wait endlessly for nothing.

One day...

Now that I think about it...

It doesn't seem worthwhile anymore. HELL, I'm fucking making this sound like I even have a chance to be with her in the first place.

Point is, maybe today was a sign. One that sent stabbing pains to my chest to tell me saying, "FUCKING MOVE ON ALREADY RON!"

I feel like shit still.

I think I need to tell her soon regardless. I just need to know how and when.

Ugh, man. D:

Headache.

I felt like shit today to be honest.

I waited like an hour at Starbucks only to be confronted by 3 fatasss skanky bitches that were all racist and shit. Fuck, I was about to slap a hoe there. <_<

I thought when I got there, i'd be all happy and shit until yeah... FML.

From there I was like FML.

After the movie I was like FML.

When we walked around and yeah... FML.

When we ate. FML.

After we ate. It was okay.

When we were to the car. FML.

When we got to the parking lot. FML.

When I was about to walk off with just a wave. FML!

On the way home, was okay.

Then yeah. Ugh. :[

I can't seem to enjoy anything anymore.

Which is why I'm taking a break from Wangan. I played like complete shit yesterday. I think it's just wasting money to pay up playing like that. It's worthless. I'm taking a week off this shit.

I haven't been playing ball either, because I feel like shit. FML, i'm so out of shape. I should do crunches like what Jordan said. <_<

I can't seem to go to plans anymore without feeling like shit, there's always someone with someone. I just happen to stare and watch. FUCK MY LIFE. I think that's the most deppressing one.

We'll see if today goes differently...

I'll blog more tonight.

I can only describe my Tuesday in 7 words.

I felt like shit the entire day.

I feel like shit,

So i'm going to blog right now.

Man, i've been so deppressed like or really jealous ever since last night. FML. I think it's my fault, I told my self not to even come close of a MySpace page of her, but I was a dumbass and I did.

FML, to the max.

I really don't get why I get so jealous. Maybe because I keep thinking since they have someone, I don't mean shit to them. Like i'm just there. I don't know.

But I need to do or find something quick to get my mind off of it. Because this shit is going to ruin my day, or hell even my week if I don't get my shit right.

Argh, it's so frustrating and fucking deppressing.

FML x123412412412432

+ to add on to this,

Most of the people I help ALL THE TIME, I ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY. But when i'm in that certain mood or shit, they blank on me. Nothing to say. I'm left there in the fucking corner thinking for myself. Shit like "I don't want to sound stupid" really now. That's all you can fucking say to me when I help you with all your fucking shit all the time? Wow, I feel like when i'm like this people try to avoid me, I reeally don't know to be honest. But really a little love and consoling would really help you know, but I guess most people don't really APPRECIATE all my shit that I do or give for them.

Fathers Day

Didn't really feel like it to be honest... Meh too personal and too much to even speak my mind about it so i'll pass on this.

My day was really slow. All I did practically was what I did yesterday morning exept watch Devastation online. Man, i've been craving to play SF4 or Tekken the whole day because of it. AHA.

Then the whole day I spent watching movies. OH MAN PEARL HARBOR WAS ON. I MISSED THAT MOVIE<3 It's so EPIC. :O I'm watching it again right now to be honest then watching it again when it finishes because it'll be on the other channel! xD I should really title this Pearl Harbor but whatever. HAHAHA.

Then I organized my iTunes a bit and stuff. I'm not really satisfied because my iTouch is so limited to the apps and shit. UGH.

Then ate at Norms. Meh it filled me up for a few hours then I got hungry.

I got home, and just talked to peopel like usual.

I was on the phone with Princess for a few and now we're just IMing.

KEILAH IMed ME. OMG<3 AHA. I HAVEM'T TALKED TO HER ALL WEEK. I BARELY SAW HER ALL WEEK TOO! I MISS HER SO MUCH. D:<

I think i'm gooing to put some songs for ring tones on the phone and play PS3 all night...

How boring right.

Atleast I can talk to Keilah again<3

Meh.

I guess I can say today was an okay day. I kind of woke up pretty early and went back to sleep. I still woke up early.... -_- 11:30am!! Come on! It should be later. D:

So first thing I did was text Sophia goodmorning. :] She texted back like half an hour later. xD

The entire morning, I spent with my laptop off and watching movies.

I watched Highschool Musical 3! HOMG, Vanessa Hudgens. <3 -_- I can't help it man, she's fucking cute. D:<

Then the second movie was Pirates of The Carribean: At World's End, meh it's still epic. :]

The next few hours we're spent eating my mom's awesomely cooked bacon and rice. ;D So good. D:

Then the rest of my afternoon was spent in my living room playing NBA 2k9. :] That was fun. I didn't need to restart a game because of frustration today. =D


Around 3:30pm Jed calls me to chill out. I guess he was bored himself so he called me up. Surprisingly he offered to pick me up, so I was like "meh whatever". So he ended up picking me up in a few.

I got to meet an old school RGoDS today. :] AHA, his name's Jordan. This niggas tight! I guess i'm going to see more of him around now, because he's moving back to from NorCal.

We were at Super the entire day! AHA, how fucking boring. -_-

Everytime I see them play Tekken I want to learn so bad. D: It looks fucking fun. D:

I was so off on Wangan today.

We eventually got tired and went to go eat at Chop Chop, man their food is sooo goooood. Filled me up! :] I should remind my self to order seconds next time.

After that we come back to Super for a little bit, I see Max for a quick sec and he leaves with another girl like usual. HAHA.

We eventually call it a night and go to The Heights.

Man I haven't been there in a long time!! HAHA.

It was just Jordan, Jed, Matt, and I there. Jordan was having his little jerk sesh/rave going on. Matt was being a homo with his d80. Jed was just whatever. I was the same. HAHA.

The entire night was just stories and such. CATHY NGUYEN WAS SUPPOSED TO COME! BECAUSE JORDAN KNOWS HER PERSONALY. She could've came, but my pussy ass self couldn't make myself say yes, because I probably won't be able to handle a casual situation with her right there. FML. I hope there's next time....

And that was it.


PS.
I have become to notice that I like "goodmorning" and "goodnight" texts a lot. :] It really puts a smile to my face to be honest. AHA.

Michelle Don.

Okay cause she's so awesome, i'm going to blog about her instead of typing out a MySpace hack on MySpace. :D


Hi Michelle! I don't really remember how we started talking and stuff like that. AHA, I just remember seeing you with Keilah a lot in the beginning of the year. Then you would always be left behind because all the other girls go home all early! AHA, then you would just follow me and the other guys and leave a little later. xD I remember when I gave you a hug for the first time so awkward. Because I thought you were fucking annoying. :] AHAHA. Not much anymore though. :p

Let's see, you're always fun to talk to nowadays. AHA, it's wierd. I used to think you were fucking annoying, now I talk to you almost everyday. HAHA. How awesome. You're alwasys hungry and you eat like 24/7 AHA, and yet you never get fat. :] AHA. YOU SHOULD GO DO TENNIS NEXT YEAR! SO YOU'LL BE FIT! ;]

I can see myself driving around with you because I know for sure when I get my permit or something you're going to be calling me nonstop to drive around for food or whatever. AHAHA. BETTER PAY FOR MY GAS! :O

I've noticed you've been nicer to me lately. :] I think that's awesome. AHA. You should be nicer to more people Michelle. XD AND STOP BEING SO ABUSIVE. But that's not a problem for me, because you don't do anything anymore. :]

BTW, don't ever get in a crowded car with her. D: SHE TALKS SO LOUD!!! OMG. -_- Man, I wanted to yell "shut the fuck up!" But I didn't want to be mean<3 HAHA. See how nice I am?

I think because of you, my patience for you and other people either grew or shrunk, because you're the type of person that another person needs to have A SHIT LOAD OF PATIENCE WITH. Eventually I grew on to you ahaha.

You're freaking lame! AHA. I think anyone who reads this should stalk her and annoy her October 18th. ;] HAHA.

harroharroron (12:38:02 AM): i felt gay typing out a sentence so i'm not putting it.

Yeah.... HAHA.

I can describe you in so many words. :] But only certain words that're pretty uncommon nowadays are these three... Let's see, the most important word though is LOUD. OH GOD, I SWEAR SO LOUD. >< Okay then you're Nocturnal. :] You are awake 'till I have no idea. :] So thanks to you I always have someone to talk to now! :] Okay third you're Creative, you always think of the most lamest things. :] AND that's it. :] HAHA.

mnstrmichelle (1:12:10 AM): pfft. more like im so straightfoward i tell you that you are a horrible bitch when you bitch at someone. <3 and then you get patience.

Woops, I forgot something... ^ ^ ^

Okay, I think that's it for now.

I promised you like 2 things today. -_- FML, I can't break them now.

harroharroron (7:15:32 PM): i promise when i drive we'll go get food.
harroharroron (12:48:43 AM): i promise you ill edit this every now and then

HAHA, oh and about this,
mnstrmichelle (12:40:21 AM): (: i love you .

Love you too! Kbai.

harroharroron (12:59:46 AM): how do you like it?
mnstrmichelle (1:00:26 AM): oh :P
mnstrmichelle (1:00:26 AM): lol
mnstrmichelle (1:00:28 AM): i opened it
mnstrmichelle (1:00:31 AM): and mozilla froze
mnstrmichelle (1:00:32 AM): xD
mnstrmichelle (1:00:34 AM): fail[:

THIS IS TOO EPIC. LOL.


my god my brain is fried.

Why do I keep forgetting to blog. AHA it looks so lonely without new entries.

So far the first 2 days of Summer has been pretty chill.

Wednesday;

It was the first day of Summer. When I woke up I felt a bit wierd, because I forgot there was no more school. I had a "what the fuck" moment for a good 10 minutes. All I did in the morning was sit, and watch the Laker parade.

Around 2pm Jed gets here and we go to Geoffrey's house. From there I see Laura, meet his friend Armando, and two hypebeasts. Fun.

We end up eating at Johnny's Incredible Pizza Place. How fucking lame. LOL. The food was good there though! I never knew it was an all-you-can-eat. If you ever plan on going to the one being built at B.P.M. don't get desert. It fucking gives you the shits for the rest of the day. So horrible.

After that Jed and I take off to Super to do the planned tuning.

My god it was so hot in there!

Around 7pm we head out to Coldstones for Coffee and a Smoothie. Just to cool off, because it was just ridiculously hot at Super.

We go back to Super for the last time, Jed shows me Tekken (mind you i've been thinking about trying it all day), and we do the last bit of tuning.

We pick up Geoffrey but I guess his Dad wanted him home, so before we left the gate he had to go back. It was a night killer.

Jed and I finished the day with some McDo. LOL.

Going into Thursday;

I get home, and go on AIM like usual. Nothing special in particular from what I remember. So I get to bed early, thinking i'll be sound asleep. The next thing you know Princess texts me as I was like GETTING INTO THE SLEEP. AHA. So after a while I get a phonecall from her.

We ended up staying up on the phone together with Sophia 'till the sun rose up. :]

I thought it was fun. :] Exept the fact I felt drunk from being so sleepy during the last hour. AHA!

So I get to sleep, forgetting to hang up on the phone... Then I wake up around 12:30pm I think? By Princess again. HAHA. I tried going to sleep after that. Failure. -_-

IT WAS SO HOT WHEN I WOKE UP! AND I WAS FREAKING HUNGRY. LIKE HELLA HUNGRY.

So I turned on the AC in the house and made it 60 degrees. HOLY SHIT IT WAS COLD. ;D

I was walking around the house with a blanket on. HAHA.

I get on my bed, because I turned off the compooper, and I was GETTING INTO MY NAP, until my mom calls me. To say she's outside with the food.

FML, it's like no one wanted me to go to sleep! AHA.

I eat, and turn on the computer again.

Jeb tells me to play ball, so I end up going to Boiseranc.

HAHA. I see Rendell, Leoroye, Alexis, her guy, her cousin, and Jeb. AHA. Francis and Rico were there too.

Man I am so out of shape now. -_-

So I get home. Get on the computer again. Eat, shower, on the computer again.

And now I am sitting here.


AHAHA, wow I haven't blogged for a long ass time.

I think I am going to get some new shoes tomorow. w00t for me. ;D I feel like a hypebeast, fml.

Geoffrey wants to chill out around D-Plaza on Tuesday. WHO WANTS TO COME?! AHA.

Goodnight.







hmmmmmmmmmm, so there's this toournament on Saturday.... i'm only waiting on Darren...

My last day as a freshman...

It wasn't what I really planned it out to be. It was such a horrible day. :[

I just want to thank Monika Kim, if you ever happen to stop by and read this, for being there for me. <3 I really appreciate it. :]

Ugh, nothing much to talk about really.

I just had a really off day. I felt lost and out of it the entire day. :/

Thank you Princess for listening. :] I guess I feel somewhat better after venting it out, so thank-you for being there for me. :]

*sigh




It'll be all Better Today.

It seems like everything is put into slow motion.

For the past week, including right now, everything feels so slowed down. -_- Maybe because the school year is ending. EH, i've just been noticing certain things I don't really pay attention too most of the time.

The next 2 actual school day and nights are going to be slow. I can feel it.

I hope I don't get summer school. :[

Man, I can't blog like I used to anymore.

I feel so stiff when I do these now. I don't feel loose like I did before with the keyboard.

And I start feeling awkward when I re-read or think about what the fuck I am writing. -_-

I'm so lazy these days.

I can't blog about anything anymore. I guess I Twitter more, just because it's an on the spot type of thing.

I'm getting some feelings for her again, when it's obvious it's hopeless and I am hurting myself internally for it.

I can't stand this shit anymore.

D:

Damn time just flies by...

After being at that graduation today. I felt somewhat nostalgic at one point. I just felt an energy flow through me the entire day.

I started reminising every moment I can remember from this entire year. Man what memories. :]

I just hope it stays somewhat the same next year, and no one forgets about everyone.

But right now, it's like I hardly see anybody anymore. :[

I hope it isn't like this from now on, plus to add the fact that the school year is ending.

Today made me reflect on my year, and what I can do to make it worth while and a better year next school year.


Man I'm going to miss everyone next year, because I have a feeling everyone is transferring schools.


"24/7 365..."




FML, Amat has some cute chicks. SHS has a;lsdkfjadjasdf FML.