I haven't blogged in the longest time.

These past 5 days have been so crazy.

I just didn't have anything in me during Friday to blog, because I just felt like complete shit the entire day to be honest. I just can't seem to be in that position. I'm trying to live a life that doesn't revolve around girls or getting with them. (same shit) But being in that position just makes me go " fuck my life " .

I just can't handle going to places with that kind of atmosphere anymore. There's just no point.

Saturday was like my stress-reliever. It seriously was. It was my first time to go to Knotts and ACTUALLY ride the rides there. I was being such a pussy yelling the entire time during the rides yelling out profanities the entire time. Man. -___-' I never knew I can scream so loud. But all that adrenaline did get so much of my chest. It was a really fun day. It's probably going to be the most memorable days of my Summer.

Sunday was just a chill day. Even though it was fucking hot. Hottest day of Summer so far. Nothing special during that day. Just full of rest and such. Oh and I had Boba that day. Now that I think about it. I want some now. D:

Monday's significance was basketball. I watched basketball and played basketball. ALL DAY. Atleast I got some sort of fitness workout after sitting at home doing nothing and stuff.

Tuesday was such a last minute make this shit happen day. I put so much concentration and thought into the things I did and will have done and did today. All of that thinking did pull-through. It gave me a relaxing night. Until now.

Right now, I am thinking about so much. It's fucking ridiculous to be honest. 1 minute I was so happy and hyper the next i'm all thinking and all sad and shit. -___-'

The past keeps haunting me. Because all of my past is related to the people i'm associated with now.

I can't run or hide from it, because I see it or talk to it everyday.

Everything is just a " fuck my life " coincidence in my world.

Tia says everything happens for a reason. I really believe that, but the thing is...

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE REASON?

Nothing's ever clear to me, of why certain things happen and why in my life.



It seems like everything that has been happening ever since Summer started and when it started a new chapter during this night, is a forecast for every little thing that'll be happening in the future of this Summer... Maybe even beyond it. Or maybe i'm just thinking too fucking much right now.