Oh my God.

Here we go again. I feel so stupid and naive whenever I think of posting my thoughts on a girl so I won't. But fuck, this was the past. Way back in the past! I don't know why it's all coming back to me, it's fucking ugh. I don't know how to explain it. But it uplifts me just a little bit just having this type of feeling again. Fuck I don't know.. There's just something about you that gives me that feeling. It sucks because it's practically impossible. Maybe i'm being too hard on myself, but there are way too many things on the way. Maybe in the summer.. I want to respect what you want to do with your life right now and I shouldn't put myself in the way. I know the saying that if you want something go get it, but maybe being patient or something might actually benefit me here. I just have to stay strong.. I hate how I just let every single thing and thought get to me to the point of me not being able to keep this to myself. I'm so scared.