I miss you.

It's crazy. I wish I wasn't so tired, but i'll come back to this tomorrow.

Your letter touched me deeply. You opened my eyes towards certain things. You just made me love you a lot more than I already did.

I think you mean the world to me.

I'm afraid i'll love you more than my future girlfriend, if I even get one in the future... Let's hope that's not the case...

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Okay, i'm back. I think I went a bit over board with that letter. It's been a few days since and I still can't get over it at times. Everything you said was pretty expected, haha. You were really repetitive but I get the meaning of why because you just want me to understand that what you were saying is really true and it isn't bullshit. I couldn't ask for anyone else but you to be this special friend of mine, my best friend. I feel like I can't do that shit to you anymore, no matter how many times I have said this to myself about doing these type of things towards you but I feel like this may be the last saying about those types of actions coming from me. It's good to know that you still know how much hurt you have caused me and you can't forgive yourself about it, I don't know but I like that. I just have to learn that shit in the past should just stay there and I shouldn't let it get in the way of what is happening now. It literally makes me about to cringe when I read from your own writing that it hurts and frustrates you as much as you frustrate me when you do certain things to me when I do the shit I do to you. It's amazing how close this bond is between us, it's crazy. We've literally become part of each others lives and it doesn't seem like neither of the both of us will drift away no matter what happens. To know that you'll fight to stay in my life no matter how many times I push you away and if I ever want you out of it, it makes me feel special. It really does because I have never had anyone say that to me before. It makes me feel wanted, something i've always wanted to get from someone. You mean a lot to me too, and I love you. Your letter came just in time to pull me out of being so melancholic it's crazy. You're really something. I think you're amazing.

I would have said a lot more probably if I didn't lag it. But even then I don't think words could describe how I felt when I first red that letter.

I've been behind on the matters of my mind on this blog because of pure laziness and such.

I ranted about Keanu on Tumblr because of how much he's been fucking up... But am I being too harsh though? Eh, I don't really care right now because we've all been helping him out ever since we took him in. I hope you get your shit straight though. We said we're fed up because we're being real but we're always gonna have your back on shit, it's just up to you to make the choice on what you do with your life and the people in it.

I can't believe you just put me on blast on Tumblr like that. I feel like an asshole but then... why do you deserve some sympathy? I never get any sympathy. Knowing you, you probably aren't but at the back of your head you are. You know i've always been there but then your ignorance just keeps pushing me away on certain nights it's crazy. Maybe i'm being ignorant too but shit. I don't know. I feel like a douche right now because of that shit you posted but I think over the past week, I learned to man up on just not giving a fuck about certain things anymore. The world isn't fair to me, same with the people so I just stopped being fair every day. You need to get your own on certain days too, shit.

I've been feeling that void here and there again, I feel like all of that summer love shit is starting to bloom out of most people. Haha, it's weird as fuck walking out of Spanish earlier and I see Dylan with Ella and shit. I was like, wow what the fuck? Haha, I just walked away. I felt kind of awkward just being within 10 feet of them. Shit's weird. It's sort of like that one Harry Potter picture I posted on Tumblr last week.

Eh, this type of void shit is for another day. It's 11:30 and I have CSTs tomorrow. I was supposed to start on my essay today but I lagged the mother fuck out of it, eh. I'll ask Minh about it tomorrow and i'll do it when I get back from visiting Keilah.

Tomorrow should be fun.

It's only going to be Tuesday.

I feel like I have a lot more to say but I hate the fact I get writer's block whenever I set my eyes on a blog template.