why ?

why is it that i am starting to have some sympathy crash on me like a wave....

i have been thinking about what i have been doing lately and i shall say the truth, it HURTS me inside.

but i dont know how i still manage to do this, i feel like a zombie most of the time now. but whatever. my life has started to get a little bit more managable now that i have forgotten and gotten used to my new lifestyle.

i just noticed that i never fall asleep in class now baha.

this week has been very hard, and tomorow is friday.

things have been starting to look up for me yesterday. so hopefully it continues tomorow and onward.

blah, back on topic.... should i apologize to you??? i do not know. i know it's bad to hold grudges... but i dont know what to do. i feel that if i forgive you, things might go back to the old ways and ill be miserable with you frolicking around.

ayyyy, i need to think more. gnite.

tomorow i might blog during school.... it depends.